Merry Christmas (i'm back)

Merry Christmas, everyone! Enjoy the holidays (as best as it's possible this year).

Yes, there hasn't been any update for a long time. i have had some worries occupying my mind, my kinky side disappeared almost completely and i wasn't feeling creative at all.

Everything is coming to a positive conclusion now and i'm feeling kinky again. i'm working on new kinky devices (more on that in the new year) and i got my Christmas-spanking from Lady Helena a week ago.

She tested Her new Christmas session on me, so if you haven't listened to it yet and don't want to be spoiler-ed, stop reading now...

Lady Helena had told me to have the spanking-machine and -bench ready. i hadn't felt the cane in months and i was nervous about what was to come...

After talking a bit, She told me to get into position. I knelt down in front of the bench and bent over. Lady Helena told me to keep one hand free, the other hand would be cuffed to the bench. After i had strapped down my legs, i put one hand in position and Lady Helena activated the electromagnet. Click! 

It's amazing what being restrained does to me. A minute before, we were chatting and joking and from one moment to the other, i was feeling docile and helpless. 

Lady Helena started to take me into a trance. Due to my uncomfortable position, i didn't fall as deep as with the recorded version of the session, but it got me into the mood. I enjoyed Her describing how She wrapped my body into Her gift-wrap, making me unable to move. Before long, i found myself bent and tied over the sawhorse. She informed me that i was on the very top of Her naughty-list this year and i would be punished. The thought of being spanked turned me on...

It didn't take long, before i could hear the swish of the cane and a split-second later, i felt the pain. Holy sh*t! That was a hard stroke, especially without a warm-up. I didn't have time to process the pain, a second stroke hit me while i was still groaning. Then a third one.

Lady Helena was using the series-function. I had never tried it before and was now regretting having it built in. Now i was getting a little scared. She was already testing my limits with the first few strokes...

The second series followed after only a short break, then another one. Was She still ramping up the strength? It definitely felt like, my groans were becoming louder...

She didn't deliver a lot of strokes, maybe twenty, but always in series of three or four, and with each stroke of a series, the pain seemed to double. She had even allowed me to stroke my cock, but i couldn't get it hard.

During the last few series, i was sobbing and the thought of begging for mercy was crossing my mind. But it was meant to be a punishment, She could hear my pain and obviously it was what She wanted me to feel. It was Her decision and i wasn't in a position to question that.

I was glad it was over when Lady Helena released me and ended the call. i inspected my behind in the mirror, expecting to see some serious bruises, but my skin was still intact, only nice thick welts...

i checked the web-interface before shutting down the software... the spanking-machine was set to only 58%... what will happen if Lady Helena decides that i deserve a serious punishment...? 

Long time no play...

It had been a long time since i last talked to my Owners Domina Shelle and Lady Helena. All of us had been kept busy by the Corona situation and other circumstances.
Last night, we finally made it! Domina and i were just starting to chat, when Lady Helena joined us. What a great surprise! We had a lot of updates to share and we laughed and had a great time already before the session started.
Then Domina instructed me to prepare the stroking-machine and get ready to be restrained. A rush went through me when i heard the relays click. I tested the restraints, but the magnets held me in a spread-eagle position. I was at my Owners' mercy, no escape possible.
A spontaneous cry for help escaped my mouth which produced giggles from all three of us.

Then the session started. Domina was taking me into trance, while Lady Helena controlled the stroking-machine. They told me that i would need to beg them to slow down if i didn't want to fail by cumming...
Domina Shelle started to test an idea for a new session on me. She took me to the 'Pink Forrest' that i already knew from other sessions and i soon found myself in a fantasy where Domina fucked my mouth with a strap-on, while Lady Helena fucked me from behind. All the time controlling the stroker expertly.
After a while, Lady Helena cranked up the speed of the stroker in sync with Domina's suggestions. She varied the up and down speed, played with the stroke-length and soon i felt myself approaching the edge. i started to beg them to slow down. I didn't allow myself to get too close, because i knew that they would keep me begging for a bit before turning the speed down. I didn't want to risk being punished for failing.
This repeated for a couple of times, sometimes they kept me begging for longer, other times they gave in sooner. I could never be sure about the right moment to start begging.
Finally, Domina Shelle allowed me to beg for an orgasm. Of course, i was denied at first, but after a few more edges and begging, they allowed it.
I came hard, but in the same moment, i knew what was coming. They just enjoy it so much to hear me begging them to stop. After what felt like an eternity for me, Lady Helena switched to a lower speed. It was bearable now, just enough to keep me hard, so my cock wouldn't slip out of the stroking-machine. But while Domina was ending the session, Lady Helena surprised me several times by cranking the speed up again for a few seconds. She just loves it too much to hear me gasp and beg...

We said goodbye and like so often after our sessions, i was barely able to get a complete sentence together. That's how intense this combination of hypnosis and remote-controlled toys can be.
Domina left me with a task. She had sent me a draft of a new recording and told me to listen at bedtime and give Her feedback. She once again seems to have read my thoughts, because She interprets a (non-kinky) topic that i have been thinking about in Her own way. But that's all i'm going to tell...

Forced to cum

i'm still blown away when i think back to last night...
Lady Helena had me tied to the bed and played with the e-stim device. She had forbidden me to cum. We had agreed on a penalty, but knowing how intense the e-stim feels after i came would have been incentive enough.
She didn't waste any time and began to ramp up the power. I was soon squirming, my cock wasn't used to the stimulation, yet. The intense stimulation and Lady Helena describing how She would tease and use me had me quickly in a conflict. I knew i should try to relax and hold back, but i also knew that She wanted me close to the edge, so i went back and forth between relaxing and focusing on the stimulation.
Lady Helena kept ramping up the signal. I was fighting against the restraints that held me spread-eagle and i loved to feel them holding me tight. Finally i had to beg Her to turn the power down. She gave me a short break, but then started to turn it up again. And again, She didn't give me much time to enjoy the lower signals, but went on until the sensations started to get painful.
We did several of this cycles and i thought that i wouldn't be able to cum with the over-stimulation. But at one point, i felt the edge approaching and there was nothing i could do. The signal was very strong now and i knew that this would be no nice orgasm. I told Lady Helena that i was about to cum and a moment later, it happened. Well, somehow...
The strong stimulation overrode all the feelings and didn't let me relax my muscles after the first squirt. I was like i was stuck at that point, before the mental pleasure could start. The electricity was now feeling even stronger. I started to beg Her to turn the power down, but She let me struggle for a while before She did.
I was feeling exhausted, confused and a sex-headache had started to set in. I was looking forward to be freed and take a shower. Then i felt the electricity getting stronger again. It felt so intense now, that i started to beg almost immediately. Lady Helena ramped it up further, She enjoyed my moans and screams.
She gave in finally, but only to start a 3rd cycle after only a short break. i almost reached the edge again this time and i was very glad when She stopped. Being forced to cum again with the signal so high would have been excruciating.

Finally, She turned the e-stim off and released me from the restraints. I was sweaty and exhausted and unable to think or talk straight. i needed almost 2 hours to come down before i was able to fall into a peaceful sleep... thank You, Commander!

Alien Abduction

At night, when i'm trying to fall asleep, my mind often starts to wander and i fantasize about being kidnapped by femdom-aliens. Most of the times, i start to feel paralyzed and i think i fall into a brief state of trance, because i never get far into that fantasy, but get stuck in a loop.

When i saw that Domina's new session is called Alien Abduction, i was thrilled and listened as soon as possible. The anticipation made it effortless to focus on Domina's voice. She uses a lot of terms from astronomy in this recording. Start, light-years, black holes... for me as a hobby-astronomer, this was a trigger to listen even more closely.

After the induction, i found myself on an operating table, paralyzed and surrounded by the female aliens, just like in my fantasies. I was about to be genetically changed, so that they could use me for breeding purposes...
I don't want to tell to much, because that would ruin the experience of listening to this session for the first time. Only so much: during this recording, i became so horny that i was dying to stroke. If i hadn't been paralyzed, i would probably been unable to remain still and focused.

I was allowed to cum towards the end, but like with Lady Helena's latest session, i didn't feel like i could reached the each. At least not until the countdown ended and i came on command.
The session ended with a fun post-hypnotic trigger, but i'll leave it to you to find out about that... giggles...

Body Worship

It has been almost half an year since Lady Helena's latest file, but Her newest recording Body Worship was certainly worth the wait.
I had bought the file immediately when i saw the update, but it took me until Saturday evening, before i could finally be sure enough to be undisturbed.
I got comfortable and started the recording... Her sultry voice and Her calm way of talking relaxed me immediately and i was soon in a deep, dreamlike trance. What now followed were some highly erotic fantasies about worshiping parts of Lady Helena's body. Her breasts, Her legs, all having the effect of making me very very horny.
When She finally told me to stroke, i didn't have much control over it. She teased me for a while, before instructing me to get ready to cum on Her command. While i was waiting to hear that word, it felt like something was blocking me from getting me close to the edge, but the moment She said the word, i came. It was sudden and strong, so strong that i was kicking my legs (and hurt myself a bit, but i only noticed that later).
Then the recording ended. There was no wake-up and i was left in my post-orgasmic bliss. I let my mind drift again and enjoyed the sensations a little bit longer, before i opened my eyes.
I can't wait to listen again to this erotic masterpiece, but before i do, there's also Domina Shelle's new recording. Stay tuned...

it has been a while...

wow, the last update is more than 4 months ago... due to Covid-19, the interactions with my Owners have been less frequent than normally, but we are getting back to normal.

After the circumstances had forced us to reschedule several times, i could finally talk to Lady Helena last night. It was so good to hear Her sexy voice after such a long time! We had a lot to talk about and catch up, before playing.
Lady Helena gave me a nice spanking, the first one after several months. She didn't administer a lot of strokes, but the long break and the fact, that She focused on my sitting-spot, had their effect and it took me a while to get used to the pain and enjoy it.
I'm already looking forward to play again next week. I'll probably be tied spread-eagle to the bed, while Lady Helena uses the e-stim device on me...

Arrested and a sissygasm

I was still at work on Friday, getting ready for the weekend, when my email-indicator icon turned from white to blue. That color alone has become a trigger for me and my heart started to beat faster.
An email from my Owner, Domina Shelle! She had released Her newest recording, a day earlier than usual. What a start into the weekend!

The next few hours felt like an eternity, but then i was finally sure to be undisturbed and could listen to the new file called The Enforcer. I was a bit surprised, that the story started so early into the recording. Domina had interleaved it with the induction, which i found to be very effective. It also helped me to stay focused throughout the session.
It would spoil the fun to reveal too much about the story, but if you love to be arrested by a sexy Sheriff, this is a session for you...

I woke up extremely horny and with the post-hypnotic suggestion to edge for Sheriff Rivers. I was allowed to decide to cum and pay Her fee or sacrifice my orgasm.
Was it really a free decision? For me it was immediately clear that i wouldn't want to cum, although it got more difficult with every time i listened during the weekend.

Monday morning, i had another email. Domina had made a sissy version of Helplessly Obedient and She had send it to me as a treat. She's so generous with Her pets!
Again, time seemed to stand still while i was waiting for the evening. Then it was finally the time. I put on my silicone breasts, the pussy-pants and some nice panties and stockings. I made myself comfortable and started to listen.
I won't tell much about the session, because that would spoil some of the fun, but i was rubbing my pussy a lot! It felt so good and even without direct stimulation of my cock, i managed to edge and cum exactly when Domina Shelle told me to.
And this orgasm was a very special experience! It started with me ejaculating, but that part was more like a ruined orgasm, due to the lack of stimulation of my cock, in fact, it barely existed in my perception at that point.
The real orgasm happened in my mind and was probably the longest and most intense one i ever experienced. It went on and on until Domina told me to slow down.
I don't remember the waking up process, my head was spinning so much that i couldn't think of anything. It took me a while after the file had ended to open my eyes and get up and even then, i stayed in a wonderfully blissful state for the rest of the evening.

A new drawing

I didn't draw for too long. It was not only because i was occupied with creating kinky toys, but i was also lacking inspiration. Even after Domina Shelle asked me to make a drawing for Her in our session in December, it took me quite a while to decide what to draw. But once i had started i quickly got back into the flow and i was happy to present this drawing to my Owner.

Yesterday, while i was at work, i received an email, sent from Her phone. I was surprised, because for Her, it was very early in the morning.
The title was 'picture to stroke to'.
I was lucky to have some privacy in that very moment and i opened the attached photo immediately.
It showed the cleaning products, that Lady Helena had instructed me to buy for them...
Haha, funny! But still it aroused me and my cock went hard.

I love my Domina's humor and wicked surprises!

Sissy-maid training

My last session with both of my Owners was so much fun, that i asked them to do that again.
Lady Helena has access to my calendar, so we didn't need to negotiate a day, She just choose one that fit Domina Shelle and Her. This way, we were playing again much sooner than i had expected.

So yesterday night, i was waiting in full attire, my maid uniform, the female mask and underneath my silicone breast-forms and the pussy-pants. Domina Shelle had sent me a loop-file that i was listening to until my Owners called.


After greeting them, Lady Helena told me to report on the home-work i had been given. She had instructed me to research on the best way to clean stainless steel appliances and a shower.



I also had to look for good cleaning products that are available in the US. I reported on my findings: for most stains, common household items like dish-soap or vinegar can be used. But i also send them some links to products that i had seen being recommended most.
Lady Helena told me to buy the products for Domina Shelle. I'm still reluctant about findom, but i also love to spoil my Owners and this command somehow let my submissive mind take over. My everyday self was gone, the session had started.

Domina Shelle told me to get a dildo with a suction cup. I went to the bedroom to fetch it when Lady Helena commented on the clicking of my 6" heels. Both giggled and made some slightly humiliating comments and i was loving it. I returned with the dildo and Domina told me to kiss the tip and then to suck it, but it didn't fit into the mouth opening of my mask. So i had to lick it until Lady Helena decided that i should stick it on the floor and ride it. I told Her that i couldn't with the pussy-pants on and that i'd need to take of the shoes, stockings and garters first before. Before i could start to undress, She changed Her mind. Since i hadn't obeyed, i should clean the toilet instead.

I went to the bathroom and began to scrub the toilet-seat and bowl. After a while, Domina Shelle asked if the seat was clean and after i had affirmed, She told me to lick it. I obeyed without hesitation and another rush of humiliation ran through me.
I think, She told me to also rub my pussy, but from this point on, memories are blurry. It's the strange effect that my pussy-pants have on me. I totally forget about my cock and somehow my mind substitutes the feelings when i touch myself. It arouses me and although i think i can't cum or even edge this way, it gives me a sort of satisfaction. This, combined with the voices of my Owners in my head, let my mind spin.
I don't remember, who it was, but after a while, one of them told me, to rub my pussy on the toilet seat. The position was kind of hilarious and also strenuous, but i began to moan. I was not playing it, my mind was tricking me to feel pleasure on my pussy.

My next task was dusting. Domina Shelle asked me whether my duster has a handle and i immediately knew what She had on mind. A moment later, i was cleaning with my duster in my mouth and since my hands were free, i was told to keep touching myself.
This was one of the most difficult cleaning tasks i have done. Not only because the duster is quite long and not very light and holding it with my mouth was really difficult, but i was also very shaky on my legs with all the arousal.
While i was dusting, Lady Helena had the idea to use the shock-collar on me. I had dreaded this moment... we have played with the shock-collar before, even on high settings, but i have recently upgraded my toys and while doing that, i added the option to choose the shock duration. While testing at a medium strength, i had set the maximum duration to what i was able to inflict on myself and then added a bit more.
The first shocks were not so bad, but Lady Helena increased the level until She was satisfied with my reaction. I don't know what settings She chose, but it felt like hot needles were pressed into my skin. I screamed and hated myself for adding that feature.
It followed more dusting and humping the toilet-seat, while Lady Helena shocked me. At one point, She told me to stay quiet or i would receive another shock. I tried hard, but i could not control my screams and so She continued to shock me until i begged Her to stop.
Lady Helena knows, that She doesn't need to stop when i'm begging for mercy, that's what my safeword is meant for. It only means that i'm not enjoying the pain, but i'm willing to keep suffering for Her. At least She shocked me less frequently now...

All good things come to an end and so did our call, however for me, the session lasted a bit longer. I was told to lay on the bed and after Lady Helena had locked my hands to the headboard with the electromagnets, She set the timer and teased me once again, that it didn't work. I told Her that i had tested everything and She doesn't have to worry. Both of my Owners found it amusing that i had been so scared last time, that i had tested and double-checked everything.
Domina Shelle talked me into a light trance before they left and then i was alone, waiting to get free. I didn't know for how long i'd be bound, but didn't have to wait for too long.

I freed myself and undressed, i had instructions to follow after our session.
First i went to the bathroom and knelt in front of the toilet. As i had been told, i stuck my cock under the toilet-seat and started to hump it. It felt so strange and humiliating and i was also surprised how heavy a toilet-seat can be... Still, it didn't take me long to cum. Most went into the bowl, but i licked up everything else like Domina had instructed.
After i had cleaned up, i sat at the computer and send a tweet, thanking them for the session. Then i ordered the cleaning products for Domina Shelle. I didn't want Lady Helena to go without something, so i send Her the same.
My final task was to send them an email, thanking them and Lady Helena also wanted an apology for my disobedience. I promised that next time, i'll ask for permission to wear my silicone parts during a session.

I took a quick shower, because i had gotten really sweaty under the mask and then went to bed, looking forward to a relaxing weekend.

I was awake early this morning and as every Saturday, i made myself a coffee and while i was waiting for it, i noticed some dirt in the sink that i immediately cleaned. Throughout the morning, i noticed, that i had an increased desire to clean and tidy up.
At 11, i was standing in the kitchen cooking an elaborate meal and while it was simmering, i changed the bed sheets and did the laundry.
Somehow i have a different attitude today, i had planned to work on new toys, but somehow, i'm more in the mood to clean. Very strange, i didn't notice any suggestions in that direction yesterday. But i love it, it's good for me...