Unsuspected curse

Princess Shelle has released a new file today. It's called Unsuspected Curse and it's a continuation of Black Magic Woman. The file made me so horny and normally, it would have allowed me to cum, but of course, I didn't.
I remember, that Princess Shelle talked about a curse in the file, but I don't know what this curse is. Maybe I will find out in the next days...
I'm feeling the need to cum more often now, but still I know, that I must not. It's strange, I can't really make up my mind if I want to cum or not, but I know, that I will stay chaste for Princess Shelle as long as she wants.

More dreams

While I was using the toilet at work today, I suddenly remembered, that I had an erotic dream again last night. This time, I can remember two short scenes...
In the first one, a Mistress, I think it was Lady Helena, peed in my mouth and made me drink it. I liked that, but I couldn't drink fast enough and in the end, I was covered in her piss.
In the second scene, I was lying on my bed, tied up and on the very edge of an orgasm, but I was unable to cum. I'm pretty sure, that this was the effect of  'The Lock' and else, I would have had a wet dream.
For the rest of the day, I was even hornier than usual and I think that I wouldn't have taken much stroking to get to the edge. But I have listened to so many sessions that allow me stroking lately, that I decided, not to touch my cock today. It's difficult, but I think, that I should not give in to my urges that much.

I'm starting to enjoy cleaning

Some days ago, Princess Shelle was joking about that she might need a live in slave to get work done and if I would like the job. This would really be a dream come true and I have been fantasizing about it since then. But it's not only that fantasy. I have also noticed, that since then, I'm keeping my flat even cleaner and I even enjoy doing it.

Princess Shelle has also instructed me to listen to Black Magic Woman to prepare myself for the coming Halloween session. I don't know that file, yet and I will listen to it in bed later.

Lady Helena's birthday

Today has been uneventful so far. I haven't listened to any session, yet, but I will do so later in bed.
It's Lady Helena's birthday and Princess Shelle has instructed me to listen to one of her sessions and review it. I have chosen 'Law of Hypnosis', I haven't listened to it that often and can't really recall what it was about.

Nipple play

The day started pretty uninteresting, but in the afternoon, Princess Shelle sent the command to pinch my nipples every hour for 6 hours. I like nipple-play and my arousal grew every time I pinched them.

Princess Shelle also instructed me to listen to one of Lady Helena's files, so I chose Hand Maiden. The erotic story she tells made me even hornier and so I listened to Sexual Transference once more to get a chance to stroke. I lost count of how many times I have listened to it, but I went even deeper than usual today. The suggestions are so deeply embedded in my mind by now, that I have little control over how long I stroke after listening. There is always one point, where I get so close that I have to stop and in that moment, I fully awaken from trance. Afterwards, my need to stroke is almost gone for the next one or two hours.

More puppy training

Princess Shelle has released the second part of the puppy training yesterday and I have listened to it twice already. Her suggestions made me hump a pillow while the file ended. I humped it until I was exhausted and then I stopped and woke up.

I have also listened to 'Sexual Transference' today to get a chance to stroke. I have been so horny the last days, but I'm not sure if I want to cum. It's Princess Shelle's decision anyway, so I don't waste time thinking about it.

No more cumming this year

Princess Shelle has extended my chastity until next year. She said, that she'll then decide if she still wants me to cum. I'm not sure, how I should interpret that phrasing, but it doesn't sound like there will be a high chance for an orgasm on new year's eve.
She has also given me new assignments for the next week and the toilet usage rule is now in place until further notice.

I have listened to the puppy training file in the evening to prepare for the second part, that will be released soon. I also listened to 'Obedience is pleasure' another time. Both don't include stroking instructions and since I didn't have enough time for another session, I didn't have a chance for stroking.

A sexy dream again

I had a sexy dream again last night. Princess Shelle was training me as her pony. She had me trotting on a lunge and instructed me to keep a proper posture and raise my knees high.
I wished I could remember more details, but the few memories I have are already enough to fire my fantasy and make me horny whenever I think about this dream.

Following Princess Shelle's instructions, I have listened to 'Obedience is Pleasure' again this evening and I have to listen two more files. I crave to masturbate, but since I may only stroke if instructed in an email or file, I didn't have an opportunity today, at least not yet. I might listen to a file that allows stroking before I go to sleep.

A strange dream

I had a strange dream... I was masturbating and going to far and I felt that I was starting to cum, but I didn't cum. It felt strange and I felt guilty for not being careful enough.
When I first remembered this, I wasn't sure if it was real or a dream and it took me a while to come to the conclusion, that it must have been a dream. I'm still not 100% sure, though.

Princess Shelle said, that I have a problem with control, because I couldn't hold the enema yesterday and she is right. Her control of my cleaning has helped me a lot and when she has punished me for being disobedient, I have paid more attention afterwards.
She also asked, if I enjoy chastity. This confused me a little. She knows that I enjoy chastity and being denied and I wonder if this was a hint of a stricter training she has in mind...

Punishment

I have spent the last few days in bed with a cold and there was not that much interesting.
Lady Helena decided to punish me with an enema for not following my toilet instructions. I executed the punishment today. I couldn't hold the enema long enough and soiled myself a bit before I was on the toilet and I felt quite uncomfortable for a while afterwards. It's not something that I would like to experience again.

While I spent the time in bed, I have been listening to quite a few sessions. It let me feel a bit better for a while and time passed faster.
Princess Shelle has told me to listen to 'Obedience is Pleasure' for 7 days and I already have listened twice.

Punishment ahead

My urge to stroke was again strong today. I have listened to The Lock and Victim of Mindlessness to get an opportunity to stroke.
I have broken the bathroom rules and confessed to Princess Shelle. she wants me to ask Lady Helena for punishment. She said, that she's to sweet to give me that punishment. That hint worries me a bit, but it excites me even more.

Urge to stroke

I listened to 'Victim of Mindlessness' in the early evening, because I needed to stroke and this session allows me to stroke slowly most of the time while it's running. What I didn't think of was, how much urge to stroke afterwards this session creates.
I resisted the urge, but I found myself a couple of times with my hand inside my pants.

Back to cock-control

Today has been quite difficult. I have listened to the monthly training and some other short files and none of them contained stroking instructions. I neither had such from Princess Shelle directly, so I had to spend the day without stroking.
It had only been a bit more than one week with free stroking and I had already fallen back into my old habit of stroking from back before I met Princess. Stopping again now was almost as difficult as it was the first time when I became Princess Shelle's slave half a year ago, but giving up control over my stroking let's me feel more controlled and secure again. The freedom of the past week had felt somehow wrong.

Princess Shelle has a very interesting article on her website. If you ever wondered, how erotic hypnosis works, give it a read: http://www.shellerivershypnotica.com/shelle/what-is-erotic-hypnosis.html

Less stroking allowed

Princess Shelle has answered to my email about my stroking and watching porn. From now on, I'm only allowed, when a file requires it or when Princess Shelle commands it in an email. I guess that will be pretty hard after all the stroking last week.
Princess did not mention the porn. I'm relieved, that she didn't punish me for it, but she has extended my daily rules by another week and this time, I have to report whenever I disobey the toilet usage rules. I'll have to watch the clock much more careful now, so I don't miss the full hour.

I want to be denied

I have listened to the new file again and I still didn't cum. I have told Princess Shelle, that I want to stay chaste and I asked her to deny me until I can't take it any more.
I have also listened to Sexual Transference once more to strengthen my desire to be chaste.

My stroking is still out of control. I have watched porn without permission and I have confessed this and asked for punishment.

Still locked

I have listened to the new session 'Sexual Psychosis' today. Princess Shelle allows to have a ruined orgasm during the session. I really wanted to cum while I was listening and I tried, but I couldn't. Probably, this is because The Lock is still in effect. I have a proof now, that I can not cum without listening to the key file.
Afterwards, I was glad, that I didn't cum, because I still want to stay chaste until christmas.

Stroking out of control

My stroking is getting out of control. I have stroked for more than an hour in bed yesterday night and I have stroked again before getting up. And stroking was what I did most of the evening, only interrupted for eating and listening to hypnosis.
I don't know how long I will be able to take this. I'm hoping for the next file, maybe it reverts this curse.

Mindless stroking

I find myself mindlessly stroking more and more often since I started listening to Victim of Mindlessness. I have no control over it, I start without thinking about it and then stop again after a while. I was wondering if this is because of the file or if I am stroking without permission, but Princess Shelle said, that it might in fact have to do with the session and that I shouldn't worry. I'm relieved that I'm not disobedient.
She has also extended the special instructions by another week. I'll have to continue listening to Point of impact and Obedience Training and I'll have to follow the daily instructions that tell me what to eat and drink.

Chaste until christmas

Something is different since I listened to Victim of Mindlessness. It's hard to describe, but I feel owned and submissive. I like how this feels.
I have often thought about surrendering my orgasm for the rest of the year when I was falling into trance, but when I was awake, I had doubts if I could go that long. I had told Princess Shelle about this and she wants me to stay chaste until Christmas now. It's not much less than a year, but I want to do that for her.