Things changed when i listened to this week's instruction file in the evening and i learned that this week my challenge will be to edge as often as possible. For the first day, it was limited to once per hour, so i only edged 3 times, but the next days will be a lot harder...
Boot camp: final week
The final week of Lady Helena's bootcamp has started. When i read the instructions, my first impression was that it wouldn't be much different to last week. I'm allowed red meat again, only fried food and ice-cream (which would be awesome to have, considering the weather) are still forbidden.
Things changed when i listened to this week's instruction file in the evening and i learned that this week my challenge will be to edge as often as possible. For the first day, it was limited to once per hour, so i only edged 3 times, but the next days will be a lot harder...
Things changed when i listened to this week's instruction file in the evening and i learned that this week my challenge will be to edge as often as possible. For the first day, it was limited to once per hour, so i only edged 3 times, but the next days will be a lot harder...
Boot-camp: week 3
I'm now in the middle of week 3 of Lady Helena's boot-camp. For making it through the first two weeks, i have earned the title 'private' and i'm allowed to drink coffee again. Great news for me!
The routine stays similar to the first two weeks. Diet, exercise and listening to daily session will keep me busy.
I think i have used the permission to edge a little too much last week, because my stroking is restricted again to 5 minutes a day and the first two days have been a bit frustrating.
Before i went to bed on Monday, i got an assignment from Commander Helena. It was already too late to start with it, so i had to wait until Tuesday evening.
After putting nipple-clamps on, i started with the assignment. First i had to write down my workout mantra 10 times. Fortunately i'm fast at typing, so it took me only 10 minutes, but my nipples started to hurt when i was finished. The next instruction was to put two ice-cubes up my ass and continue writing until they had melted. I don't like the cold in my ass and how it feels when they melt, but the worst was to come next.
15 slaps on my balls and after each, i had to write a sentence. The writing break made sure that the pain could sink in and i couldn't rush through it. I hate hitting my balls, but Commander Helena likes it and knowing that helps me to hit even harder...
After pushing a butt-plug in and out a couple of times, more ice-cubes went in and i was back to typing the mantra while they melted.
After around 45 minutes, i was finally finished and allowed to take off the nipple-clamps. I had underestimated how long the assignment would take or else, i would have chosen weaker clamps. The hurt a lot when they came off and my nipples were sore for quite some time afterwards.
I have a feeling that there will be more assignments like this... after all, Lady Helena calls it the 'hell week'...
The routine stays similar to the first two weeks. Diet, exercise and listening to daily session will keep me busy.
I think i have used the permission to edge a little too much last week, because my stroking is restricted again to 5 minutes a day and the first two days have been a bit frustrating.
Before i went to bed on Monday, i got an assignment from Commander Helena. It was already too late to start with it, so i had to wait until Tuesday evening.
After putting nipple-clamps on, i started with the assignment. First i had to write down my workout mantra 10 times. Fortunately i'm fast at typing, so it took me only 10 minutes, but my nipples started to hurt when i was finished. The next instruction was to put two ice-cubes up my ass and continue writing until they had melted. I don't like the cold in my ass and how it feels when they melt, but the worst was to come next.
15 slaps on my balls and after each, i had to write a sentence. The writing break made sure that the pain could sink in and i couldn't rush through it. I hate hitting my balls, but Commander Helena likes it and knowing that helps me to hit even harder...
After pushing a butt-plug in and out a couple of times, more ice-cubes went in and i was back to typing the mantra while they melted.
After around 45 minutes, i was finally finished and allowed to take off the nipple-clamps. I had underestimated how long the assignment would take or else, i would have chosen weaker clamps. The hurt a lot when they came off and my nipples were sore for quite some time afterwards.
I have a feeling that there will be more assignments like this... after all, Lady Helena calls it the 'hell week'...
Boot camp: week 2 ahead
Today is the last day of week 1 of Lady Helena's boot camp and it took more willpower to go through with it than i had expected. Especially the dietary restrictions have been hard for me. Having no coffee in the morning was hell and i could only stand it because i didn't have to work this week. Luckily, Lady Helena has allowed me to drink a cup of coffee when i absolutely need it, so my work doesn't suffer.
She had given Her recruits the chance for a short teasing session on Thursday and i happily accepted the offer. I had been looking forward to be allowed some stroking, but when i received the order to have a wooden spoon at hand shortly before the appointed time, i knew, that She had other plans. My hope was that She would tell me to spank my ass, that would have been fun, but when She told me to recite this week's mantra, i knew i was doomed. I had chanted it every morning and evening, but i had read it from a print-out, because i'm not good at memorizing such things. I got nervous and failed to recite even the first line.
As a punishment, She had me hit my balls 30 times with the spoon. It's surprising, how much harder i can make myself hit when She guides me and so my balls began to hurt after a few strokes. Instinctively, i put a little less strength into the smacks, but Lady Helena must noticed that by the noise or because i was whimpering less and She told me to hit harder whenever i tried to reduce strength.
I was relieved when the set of 30 was over... and horrified when Lady Helena demanded 5 more extra hard strokes... how long would this continue...?
Luckily, it ended after those 5. I will make sure, that i know the mantra next time we talk...
We chatted a bit before saying goodbye and i might have made the next mistake there... I told Lady Helena how i had used my spanking-machine on myself the week before. I had been so enveloped in enjoying the pain, that i overdid it a bit and only noticed that my skin broke when i felt blood dripping onto my foot. It hurt a lot for several days and again i was lucky to have the week off. Sitting at my desk would have sucked with my sore ass.
"You are a pain slut, I love that!" was Lady Helena's reaction. She's right, i am a pain slut, but only for certain kinds of pain like spanking or nipple torture. Hitting my balls is not on that list!
Next week's instructions are similar to this week. I'm allowed red meat or something sweet on one day of my choice (Yay!) and the time for wearing nipple clamps and a buttplug will ramp up to one hours. But Lady Helena decided, that since i'm a pain slut, this might be too easy for me and She will send me additional instructions. I'm not quite sure if i like that or not, it depends on the pain She chooses to inflict and i have a strong suspicion, that my balls will be involved...
She had given Her recruits the chance for a short teasing session on Thursday and i happily accepted the offer. I had been looking forward to be allowed some stroking, but when i received the order to have a wooden spoon at hand shortly before the appointed time, i knew, that She had other plans. My hope was that She would tell me to spank my ass, that would have been fun, but when She told me to recite this week's mantra, i knew i was doomed. I had chanted it every morning and evening, but i had read it from a print-out, because i'm not good at memorizing such things. I got nervous and failed to recite even the first line.
As a punishment, She had me hit my balls 30 times with the spoon. It's surprising, how much harder i can make myself hit when She guides me and so my balls began to hurt after a few strokes. Instinctively, i put a little less strength into the smacks, but Lady Helena must noticed that by the noise or because i was whimpering less and She told me to hit harder whenever i tried to reduce strength.
I was relieved when the set of 30 was over... and horrified when Lady Helena demanded 5 more extra hard strokes... how long would this continue...?
Luckily, it ended after those 5. I will make sure, that i know the mantra next time we talk...
We chatted a bit before saying goodbye and i might have made the next mistake there... I told Lady Helena how i had used my spanking-machine on myself the week before. I had been so enveloped in enjoying the pain, that i overdid it a bit and only noticed that my skin broke when i felt blood dripping onto my foot. It hurt a lot for several days and again i was lucky to have the week off. Sitting at my desk would have sucked with my sore ass.
"You are a pain slut, I love that!" was Lady Helena's reaction. She's right, i am a pain slut, but only for certain kinds of pain like spanking or nipple torture. Hitting my balls is not on that list!
Next week's instructions are similar to this week. I'm allowed red meat or something sweet on one day of my choice (Yay!) and the time for wearing nipple clamps and a buttplug will ramp up to one hours. But Lady Helena decided, that since i'm a pain slut, this might be too easy for me and She will send me additional instructions. I'm not quite sure if i like that or not, it depends on the pain She chooses to inflict and i have a strong suspicion, that my balls will be involved...
Boot Camp
Lady Helena's bootcamp has started! When i awoke this morning, i found Her email with instructions and a set of files for the first of four weeks. My morning and evening routine will now include an additional mantra for Her, besides that i do for my Owner and after that, an exercise routine is required. It is accompanied by a recording where Lady Helena guides me through them, which makes it a lot easier for me to go through with it.
The next impact on my daily routine are the dietary commands that i'll have to stick to. Some of them are easy to follow, but being denied of coffee and cheese, two of my favorite food products will be very hard.
Right after lunch, i continued by listening to the files that are to be listened to as often as possible during this first week. More instructions were awaiting me... from now on, there will be no 'i' or 'me' when i communicate with my commander, Lady Helena, but i will have to use 'this recruit' and 'it'. I feel slightly humiliated by it, but it's also hot...
I wasn't very surprised to be denied masturbation for the first week, in fact, i was looking forward to that.
The instructions for the first two days are not too difficult (aside from the lack of caffeine). There will be additional instructions afterwards that i'm actually looking forward to, but this is only the first week and things might get much more difficult...
The next impact on my daily routine are the dietary commands that i'll have to stick to. Some of them are easy to follow, but being denied of coffee and cheese, two of my favorite food products will be very hard.
Right after lunch, i continued by listening to the files that are to be listened to as often as possible during this first week. More instructions were awaiting me... from now on, there will be no 'i' or 'me' when i communicate with my commander, Lady Helena, but i will have to use 'this recruit' and 'it'. I feel slightly humiliated by it, but it's also hot...
I wasn't very surprised to be denied masturbation for the first week, in fact, i was looking forward to that.
The instructions for the first two days are not too difficult (aside from the lack of caffeine). There will be additional instructions afterwards that i'm actually looking forward to, but this is only the first week and things might get much more difficult...
Sissy maid training
Domina Shelle released two new recordings this weekend and both of them blew me away! The first one is called Chemical Sedation. It starts with a very soothing induction that quickly took me into a deep trance. Then Domina begins to create a fantasy where She is the sexy nurse who sedates me with a new special drug. I could feel, how it made my body heavy and paralyzed before creating a burning arousal inside me. It wasn't Domina Shelle if this file hadn't also contained a deeper conditioning. While allowing me to stroke my cock, She conditioned my mind to always connect Her voice to the effects of the drug. Before reinforcing the suggestions by allowing me release, She also installed a post hypnotic suggestion that introduces a new level of orgasm control.
From now on, i may only ask for release on the first of each month and She will only grant it if i have been a good sissy girl. This will certainly be a huge motivation to always please Her, especially with the after effects of this session, because only a few hours later, i was already horny again like after an extended denial...
The second session is called Sissy Maid. The name already says what it is about... after first cleaning my mind, Domina installed a new trigger inside my brain that creates a need to clean while wearing a butt-plug. It was no surprise that She used that trigger right away and i found myself inserting a big plug before spending the next 2 hours with cleaning. The more i cleaned, the hornier i got and the time passed quickly...
With the combination of these files, Domina Shelle has created a powerful tool to keep me hard working and eager to please Her...
From now on, i may only ask for release on the first of each month and She will only grant it if i have been a good sissy girl. This will certainly be a huge motivation to always please Her, especially with the after effects of this session, because only a few hours later, i was already horny again like after an extended denial...
The second session is called Sissy Maid. The name already says what it is about... after first cleaning my mind, Domina installed a new trigger inside my brain that creates a need to clean while wearing a butt-plug. It was no surprise that She used that trigger right away and i found myself inserting a big plug before spending the next 2 hours with cleaning. The more i cleaned, the hornier i got and the time passed quickly...
With the combination of these files, Domina Shelle has created a powerful tool to keep me hard working and eager to please Her...
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