Chastity reinforcement

Like Domina Shelle instructed, I have listened to Worship - Kneel at my feet daily since She released it. Each time, Her words brought me close to the edge and I was savoring the stroking and edging, that I was allowed afterwards. My desire to cum has increased daily, but I have skipped the opportunities to have an orgasm.
Today, the daily instructions were different. My Owner wanted me to listen to Chastity - Lesson 4 instead. Although it had been quite a while since I listened to the series, the triggers still worked and it didn't take long until Her words had me so horny, that I felt like I was experiencing a mental climax. I was so wrapped up in this feelings, that I barely noticed Her giving me suggestions that took away my desire to cum.
When I woke up, I was horny as hell, but to my surprise, I had no temptation to stroke. Earlier this year, one of my Owner's recordings had brought back my desire to cum and I used many of the opportunities I got. It was like She had switched my brain to a different mode, but now, I feel like I'm back to the previous mode where I was appreciating being constantly horny.
I'm surprised, how quick this change was, it already feels like it has been this way all the time...

On the edge without touching

The new session for this week was already released, when I woke up. The description of Worship - Kneel at my feet sounds amazing and I was eager to listen. But unfortunately, I couldn't be sure to be uninterrupted until the early evening, but the experience I was about to have was worth the waiting!
This session is a foot-slave's dream. Domina words created such vivid images of her shoes and feet in my mind, that it didn't take long until I was trembling with arousal. She managed to bring me close to the edge with only her words and for a great part of the file, I had the feeling, that I would have a hands-free orgasm any moment. There have been other sessions which turned me on a lot, but this file plays in it's own league.
While the file ended, my Owner gave me permission to edge and decide to cum or sacrifice my orgasm. I only came a few days ago and so I skipped this opportunity and I'm definitely going to listen again, hoping to go that little step further and cum hands-free...

More details about my contract

I have been asked to give some more details about my lifetime contract, so here they are...

It didn't take long after I signed my first contract (which ran for a year), until I realized, that the relationship, I was building with my Owner was exactly what I had been looking for. To be more precise, I didn't really know, what I had been looking for, but I felt so deeply contended with serving Her, that I knew, I had found my destination. And so, I had soon taken the decision to ask for a lifetime contract as soon as my old one ran out. I was euphoric, when Domina Shelle said, that I'm ready for lifetime slavery and we began to work out the details.

My contract expresses my desire to be molded into the slave, She wants me to be, so I can serve Her and meet Her expectations. This includes doing my mantra twice a day and wearing my collar as often as possible as well as staying chaste for Her. I may not have sexual pleasure without Her permission and there's a fee for cumming or failing with chastity.

Additionally to my old contract, there's now a paragraph about my duties as maid marta. As maid marta, I'll have to follow my Owner's clothing instructions and provide maid services at least twice per month. This can either be by cleaning my own flat thoroughly or by paying a maid service for Domina Shelle. She may call on my for more services as She sees fit.

Finally, the contract states, that none of the instructions may interfere with career or family and it lays out the conditions under which it can be terminated. While Domina can terminate it at any time, I would have to pay a fee in the unlikely case, that I should ever want to end this...

Lifetime contract

Today has bee a very important day! When I woke up, I found an email from my Owner, answering the last questions I had about my lifetime contract. Additionally to my old contract, I now also contains a paragraph about my maid duties and the cum fee isn't a fixed amount any more, but decided per case by Domina Shelle.
The thought of signing it was in my head the whole day while I sat at work and when I returned home, I wasted no time to print it out and sign it.
I was very excited, when I sent back the signed contract. I knew, that there was no turning back, when I pressed the send button and I felt a rush go through my body.
I'm now Her property for the rest of my life!

Chastity reinforcement

I had been struggling with chastity after I listened to Lady Helena's Tantalizing Tease last week. I still wanted to stay locked, but I felt my willpower weakened and so, I decided to listen to All Locked Up again. The experience felt even more real this time. I felt my Owner placing the ring behind my balls and locking my cock in the chastity cage. I could feel the tightness of the cage and every time, my cock tried to get hard, I felt the pressure preventing it from getting fully erect.
It didn't help with my hornless, of course, but I'm more confident again, that I can control my urges.

I had emailed Lady Helena after listening to her file and told her, that I sacrificed my orgasm for her and in her reply, she has allowed me to stroke again to her voice and cum this time. But she also added "I am sure you understand". I know, that she wants me to listen to the new file again, but I'm not sure, if she really wants me to cum. Should I sacrifice my orgasm again? On the one hand, I want to stay chaste, but I also would like to take the opportunity to work off one more ruined orgasm, I still have 8 to go... I think, I'll just listen and see, where her voice will lead me...

Tantalizing Tease

Lady Helena has released a new file today. Tantalizing Tease is a continuation of her Chamber-series and the title already tells a lot of what it is about.
The session started with her handmaidens kidnapping me and while they were driving me to Lady Helena's house, she continued to take me deeper into trance. She had me stroke my cock for the entire session, but while I was falling deeper, I must have stopped at some point. I only noticed that, when the induction was over and the story continued to unwind.
Lady Helena's handmaidens took me to a room and prepared me for her. Then she entered the room and began to tease me. I had been almost sure, that she would let me cum, but soon, I started to understand, that she would deny me.
By the end of the recording, I was so worked up, that I was dying to cum and she even gave me the option, but added, that this would be selfish, so I couldn't help, but sacrifice my orgasm for her.

A strong urge to stroke

My arousal came back very quickly after my ruined orgasm and while I was lying in bed last night, I was already hoping to listen to Leak in your mind again today. But my Owner had different plans and made today a no-touching-day for Her chastity slaves.
The ruined orgasm seems to have reminded me of the pleasure that I can't have, more than it has helped to lessen my urge and so, today was extra difficult. My cock sprang to live on every occasion and the urge to stroke was strong and hard to resist, but I like this struggling. It makes me think of Domina Shelle and I can constantly prove my obedience...

Ruined orgasm

I have listened to Leak In Your Head again this afternoon and this time, all parts of my mind wanted to cum. As soon as the sound of dripping water started, I got hard and horny. I can remember more details from this time and now I know, that my Owner created that connection between the dripping water and my arousal later in the recording.
When She started to talk about approaching the edge, my orgasm started in my mind and when She finally told me to cum, my cock started spurting, too. Like I agreed with Her, I stopped stroking immediately and ruined my orgasms.
This partial relief calmed down my arousal for about two hours. Afterwards, I started to feel horny again, but at a level, that I'm able to endure. I also didn't feel as emptied like after a normal orgasm. It's a great method to calm down my arousal without ruining all the desire that I have built up. I wonder, how long it will take, until I'm desperate again...
I have had two ruined orgasms now, still eight to go until I can have a full orgasm again. With the current frequency of cumming, this might take a year, but I don't care. My Owner decides, when and how I get sexual pleasure and I'll be happy with whatever she chooses...

Leak in your head

I have been incredibly horny the last days and without permission to stroke, I tried to resort to anal stimulation. I fucked myself with a dildo a couple of times, trying to stimulate my prostate. It felt good and my cock was dripping a bit, but I couldn't keep going long enough to milk myself.
I have worn a prostate-massager over night, hoping that it would trigger a wet dream, but the only effect was, that I was even hornier this morning.

When I got up and checked my emails, Domina Shelle had already released this weeks file. The description of Leak In Your Head doesn't give away much of the content, but I was still hoping for stroking instructions, so I couldn't wait long to listen.
As the session started, my Owner told me to unzip my pants and get my cock out and I eagerly obeyed. I was so ready to stroke, but She told me to put my hands by my side and started a long induction, which took me very deep.
The next thing, I remember, was that She told me to stroke to the sound of dripping water. The speed was slow at first, but after a while, the drops got faster and so did my stroking. When I realized, that She would make me cum, I first didn't want to, but my urge grew with every stroke and finally, I was trying to get to the edge with the speed of the dripping water.
When she told me to cum, I wasn't far away. I would only have had to stroke a bit faster for a few seconds, but the drips kept their pace and finally slowed down and then stopped. I had missed my opportunity to cum, I didn't even manage to edge...
I'm not sure about the rest of the file. I remember her talking about fixing a leakage of my thoughts, but I'm not sure, what she did to me. But I trust, that it is good for me and will help me to improve and be a better slave for Her...

After I woke up, I felt frustrated. The urge to stroke had at least doubled and my cock grew hard on every little sexy thought or image. I need to listen and try again!

Profound sleep

Despite being locked in her virtual chastity, my Owner has allowed me to stroke, when one of her sessions requires it and so, I had hoped, that there would be stroking instructions in her new file. She released Profound Sleep on Saturday. From the description, I got, that it would be best to listen before sleep and since I was away on Saturday, I had to wait until Sunday night, always wondering, what my Domina had in store for me this week.
I finally listened last night and I must have fallen asleep at some point. When I woke up, the session had ended and I just removed my headphones and fell asleep again. I have absolutely no recollection, what the session contained, I only know from the description, that it's about sleeping well. But she had also mentioned, that there might be some kind of training in the file. I have no idea, if this is the case, the amnesia effect of this file is by far the strongest, I ever experienced.

Today, I have been constantly horny. I wanted to stroke so badly, my second lockup period is already more difficult than the whole week last time and not knowing, when it will end adds to it. Nonetheless, I love this feeling and I'm going to wait for the next session, hoping that it will have stroking instructions...

Always locked up now

Domina Shelle replied to my request to be locked again in virtual chastity and she wants me to always be locked up from now on. I didn't expect this! It's what I have been fantasizing about, but now, that it has become reality, I'm thinking about the consequences and I'm a little overwhelmed.
As much as it turns me on now, I don't know, how I will feel about it in a month or a year.
I think, I should just let things happen and see, what time brings. My Owner's decisions have always been beneficial for me and I trust, that this new arrangement will be as well.

Permission to edge

I have listened to Brain Chip - Simple Logic once again this evening. I remember, that Domina Shelle woke me up during the recording and continued to talk softly. My eyes were open and I could move, but I wasn't really able to think about what was happening. It's hard to describe, a part of my mind was awake, while another part seemed to be still in trance and while my Owner was talking, my thoughts quickly got cloudy and I was soon back in deep trance.
After the session ended, I was again confused. I was still locked in virtual chastity, but her programming required me to edge. Luckily, I got an email from her not much later and she allowed me to stroke and edge. I took my time and enjoyed every minute of it, after being locked up for 8 days.
This chastity week made me feel so connected to my Owner, that I asked her, to lock me up again. I'm now looking forward to her response. Will she lock me again and how long will it be this time?

Asking for Her decision

The week in my virtual chastity device is over and I was allowed to ask to be unlocked. I was desperate to stroke, but I also like to be locked up so much! It makes me feel controlled and dominated by my Owner.
I thought long about what I should ask for, but couldn't make up my mind and in the end, I asked Domina Shelle to decide. She owns my cock, so it's Her decision anyway. I'll be happy with whatever she wants.