I'm sure everybody knows the need to vent of a bit after a shitty day. Well, it was not me, who had a shitty day, but Lady Helena. So it was convenient for Her that we had planned a call on Friday and right after we had said hello, She informed me, that i was going to suffer to cheer Her up.
Of course i loved to have the opportunity to make Her feel better, But i also got a bit nervous.
To start with, Lady Helena told me to insert 3 ice-cubes into my ass. I hate the feeling, but it amuses my Commander to hear me whimper. Next was a pair of nipple-clamps before i got in position in front of the spanking-machine. I blindfolded myself and started to say my mantra in my mind while waiting for the things to come.
Lady Helena put on some music and while She was listening and sometimes singing along, She started to spank me. Unlike other times, She did not gradually ramp up the strength, but randomized it. A couple of times, She told me, that an extra hard stroke would be coming. I braced myself, expecting a burst of pain, but some of the times, She just delivered a light stroke. In the moment of the impact, i screamed, because i had anticipated pain, but a fraction of a second later, my scream turned into a relieved giggle. She was playing with my mind and i was getting confused...
Half way through the session, Lady Helena allowed me to stroke my sissy-clitty. It was difficult to get hard while concentrating on the mantra and receiving the spanking and my Commander increased the strength even more.
Unfortunately, my spanking-machine didn't work reliably at levels above 85%. Lady Helena was pissed and sent me to the kitchen to get more ice-cubes. She told me that i must fix it for the next time.
With 3 more ice-cubes up my ass, we continued. It felt like the ice-cubes were pressing on my prostate. Combined with the cold, it was a very strange feeling and when i was instructed to edge, it was difficult. Lady Helena stopped spanking me and i knew what was coming. The moment i informed Her that i was getting close, She delivered a hard stroke. She let me edge 3 times before our session ended.
While we were saying goodbye, i could tell, that Her mood was way better than at the beginning and She told me, that i had enlightened Her day. Hearing that was the best about the whole session. The pain-play was a lot of fun, but being able to entertain my Commander is the best feeling of all.
After the call, i checked my ass-cheeks in the mirror. I had some thick welts and in a few spots, my skin was starting to break. I wonder how it would have looked like with the spanking-machine fully working. I will find out sooner or later...
Chastity assignment completed
Day 5 and 6 were similar to the days before. I had only two stroking slots with 400 allowed strokes per day. Since the first one was during work-time, i could only use the second slot.
On day 7, the last day, i had permission to stroke as much as i liked. I had been looking forward to it a lot, it has been a long time since i had an opportunity to stroke freely.
But there was a catch, of course. I had to edge at least every two hours and hold it for a minute...
It was fun at first, but soon it became difficult. I didn't feel very horny and more and getting to the edge became more difficult.
For the end of this assignment, i was allowed to decide to cum or stay chaste and restart the week. I do want to cum, but after all this training, it feels wrong to cum on my own. It would just be too much control given to me. Instead i have begged my Owner to be allowed to wait until our next call. Then She can use the estim-device while i'm tied up and it's completely Her decision...
On day 7, the last day, i had permission to stroke as much as i liked. I had been looking forward to it a lot, it has been a long time since i had an opportunity to stroke freely.
But there was a catch, of course. I had to edge at least every two hours and hold it for a minute...
It was fun at first, but soon it became difficult. I didn't feel very horny and more and getting to the edge became more difficult.
For the end of this assignment, i was allowed to decide to cum or stay chaste and restart the week. I do want to cum, but after all this training, it feels wrong to cum on my own. It would just be too much control given to me. Instead i have begged my Owner to be allowed to wait until our next call. Then She can use the estim-device while i'm tied up and it's completely Her decision...
Day 4: Mind climax
Day 4 of the chastity assignment contained one of my least favorite instructions, spending the day without underwear. I hate leaving home without, i feel so insecure and vulnerable and i always think that everyone knows.
But i also had enjoyable instructions. I was allowed a 2nd cup of coffee and Domina had assigned me 4 time-slots during which i was allowed 200 strokes. Unfortunately, 3 of them were during work-hours and i could only find time for one of those. I don't like stroke in a public restroom and counting the strokes didn't let me focus on the pleasure, so it was more an act of obedience than something fun. I was looking forward for the 4th time at home...
In the evening, i listened to both required sessions back to back. First to 'Brain Fried', which is my favorite chastity recording, then to 'Chastity Lesson 3'. In this one, Domina brought me so close to the edge with only Her words, that i experienced a mental orgasm each time She said 'Climax'. It was a total rush and left me even more horny...
Unfortunately, i hadn't watched the time and missed the last slot for stroking, but i didn't miss it...
But i also had enjoyable instructions. I was allowed a 2nd cup of coffee and Domina had assigned me 4 time-slots during which i was allowed 200 strokes. Unfortunately, 3 of them were during work-hours and i could only find time for one of those. I don't like stroke in a public restroom and counting the strokes didn't let me focus on the pleasure, so it was more an act of obedience than something fun. I was looking forward for the 4th time at home...
In the evening, i listened to both required sessions back to back. First to 'Brain Fried', which is my favorite chastity recording, then to 'Chastity Lesson 3'. In this one, Domina brought me so close to the edge with only Her words, that i experienced a mental orgasm each time She said 'Climax'. It was a total rush and left me even more horny...
Unfortunately, i hadn't watched the time and missed the last slot for stroking, but i didn't miss it...
Days 2 and 3
Day 2:
Today was not very different from yesterday, but it was hard at work without coffee... i felt tired when i returned home. I listened to Chastity Lesson 1 after dinner, looking forward to be allowed to stroke, but i kept falling so deep, that i forgot to move my hand. After waking up, i felt refreshed and a bit less tired.
I listened to Idee Fixe in bed. I didn't remember what it was about and was hoping for some stroking instructions, but instead it left me very horny and it took me a while before i was able to sleep. I had strange dreams during the night, something about not being in control, but i can't recall details.
Day 3:
The day went similar to day 2. I had enough distraction, so the chastity didn't bother me much. i'm trying to trick myself with hot fruit-tea, at least it gives me the feeling of a cup of hot coffee in my hands...
I listened to Wicked Acceptance early in the evening. It's one of the few sessions I didn't know already. I can't really tell what happened during the trance, i just felt very quiet and cozy, but as soon as i heard the word 'chastity' towards the end, it all washed over me. Hard to describe...
I had reserved Chastity Lesson 2 for bedtime. Although i know the series, i didn't remember that it includes the permission to stay on the edge as long as i liked afterwards. I had planned to turn around and sleep after the session, but of course i enjoyed the edging. I don't know how long i edged until i finally stopped and fell asleep.
Today was not very different from yesterday, but it was hard at work without coffee... i felt tired when i returned home. I listened to Chastity Lesson 1 after dinner, looking forward to be allowed to stroke, but i kept falling so deep, that i forgot to move my hand. After waking up, i felt refreshed and a bit less tired.
I listened to Idee Fixe in bed. I didn't remember what it was about and was hoping for some stroking instructions, but instead it left me very horny and it took me a while before i was able to sleep. I had strange dreams during the night, something about not being in control, but i can't recall details.
Day 3:
The day went similar to day 2. I had enough distraction, so the chastity didn't bother me much. i'm trying to trick myself with hot fruit-tea, at least it gives me the feeling of a cup of hot coffee in my hands...
I listened to Wicked Acceptance early in the evening. It's one of the few sessions I didn't know already. I can't really tell what happened during the trance, i just felt very quiet and cozy, but as soon as i heard the word 'chastity' towards the end, it all washed over me. Hard to describe...
I had reserved Chastity Lesson 2 for bedtime. Although i know the series, i didn't remember that it includes the permission to stay on the edge as long as i liked afterwards. I had planned to turn around and sleep after the session, but of course i enjoyed the edging. I don't know how long i edged until i finally stopped and fell asleep.
New chastity assignment: Day 1
Domina Shelle had hinted, that there would be some strict chastity coming and so i was looking forward to the new session a lot. I had it in my email on Saturday morning, but unfortunately, i had to wait until the afternoon before i could listen.
The new session is part of Domina's Reform-School series and the induction followed the scheme, that i was already used to from the other lessons, so it felt familiar from the beginning and let me fall deep. I didn't remember many details when i woke up, but i knew, that i would subconsciously follow the instructions and there was also an assignment for the next 7 days. Since it was already late in the afternoon, i decided to start the next day.
Day 1:
I started the day with the special mantra for this assignment and additionally i had to wear nipple-clamps while doing it. This woke me up a bit quicker than usually. I took a shower and got comfy with a cup of coffee. This would be the only one for today, since Domina is restricting me to one cup per day again. This is a bigger sacrifice for me than staying chaste and it started to affect me as soon as i had finished that cup of coffee.
There are also a couple of sessions to listen to each day. Some of them are required, others are optional. Since the instructions gave me permission to follow stroke commands in the sessions, I listened to the required ones (Chastity Lesson 1 and Living on the edge) back to back in the afternoon. I had forgotten the incredible urge to edge, that 'Living on the edge' creates after listening and it took me a bit by surprise. I wanted to stroke badly already while Domina woke me up and i could barely wait. Even if i had wanted to, there would have be no chance to resist.
The post-hypnotic suggestions of 'Living on the edge' required me to edge 3 times in a row and i thought, that it would be quick and easy, but somehow i continued to doze off, while i was stroking. Was this due to some suggestion or just the lack of caffeine? I finally managed to stay awake long enough to do the required edges and to my surprise, it was easy to stop.
For the rest of the day, i had an urge to touch every now and then, but the first day went by without being too difficult...
The new session is part of Domina's Reform-School series and the induction followed the scheme, that i was already used to from the other lessons, so it felt familiar from the beginning and let me fall deep. I didn't remember many details when i woke up, but i knew, that i would subconsciously follow the instructions and there was also an assignment for the next 7 days. Since it was already late in the afternoon, i decided to start the next day.
Day 1:
I started the day with the special mantra for this assignment and additionally i had to wear nipple-clamps while doing it. This woke me up a bit quicker than usually. I took a shower and got comfy with a cup of coffee. This would be the only one for today, since Domina is restricting me to one cup per day again. This is a bigger sacrifice for me than staying chaste and it started to affect me as soon as i had finished that cup of coffee.
There are also a couple of sessions to listen to each day. Some of them are required, others are optional. Since the instructions gave me permission to follow stroke commands in the sessions, I listened to the required ones (Chastity Lesson 1 and Living on the edge) back to back in the afternoon. I had forgotten the incredible urge to edge, that 'Living on the edge' creates after listening and it took me a bit by surprise. I wanted to stroke badly already while Domina woke me up and i could barely wait. Even if i had wanted to, there would have be no chance to resist.
The post-hypnotic suggestions of 'Living on the edge' required me to edge 3 times in a row and i thought, that it would be quick and easy, but somehow i continued to doze off, while i was stroking. Was this due to some suggestion or just the lack of caffeine? I finally managed to stay awake long enough to do the required edges and to my surprise, it was easy to stop.
For the rest of the day, i had an urge to touch every now and then, but the first day went by without being too difficult...
Hard caning
I had a very memorable session with Lady Helena yesterday...
I started to set up everything 30 minutes before the appointed time. I didn't know what She had planned, i only knew, that the spanking-machine would come to use. Like always, i was getting nervous while i was waiting. I was tired and not really in the mood for a spanking. I began to mantra and that helped me to prepare mentally.
5 minutes before the time, i received an email. Lady Helena was running late and asked to delay our session by one hour. No problem, but it didn't help with my nervousness.
An hour later, i saw Lady Helena coming online in Skype. Some final instructions for me to follow and a few minutes later, She was calling. Like always, hearing Her voice let me relax immediately and i was wondering why i had been nervous.
After a bit of small-talk, She instructed me to get on all fours in front of the spanking-machine. She armed it, judging from the duration the motor was running, She had set it to a rather high level, maybe i had been right to be nervous...
Lady Helena told me, that She would be using me as a guinea-pig for Her upcoming session. Wow, what an honor, i loved that! She started to take me down into a trance and to tell a story. I don't want to spoil anything, so i won't go into details, but i loved the story!
Soon i had forgotten about the cane that was behind me, ready to strike and the story didn't let me expect it either. Then it suddenly took a twist.
Swish!!! Before i realized what was happening, the cane had landed across both ass-cheeks and it hit me hard. Without a warm-up, this was on the brink of my pain threshold and there was no pleasure in my moans. She hit me a couple more times and i think She even increased the strength. How long would i be able to stand this without begging for mercy? I didn't want to disappoint Lady Helena, She was having so much fun...
"This probably woke you up a bit..."
A bit? What an understatement... Lady Helena ended the trance and we continued the small-talk. Was it over so soon? I wasn't sure if i wanted more or not...
"You said, you have vacations next week and don't have to sit. So i can spank you as much as i want, right?"
Yes, i had said that and i was regretting it a bit, but i was slowly getting into the mood for more pain and i certainly didn't want to spoil my Commander's fun.
She continued to spank me randomly while we were talking. I was now getting into the mood, too and the pain became pleasure. Lady Helena increased the strength whenever my moans got quieter, She managed to keep me in a perfect balance between pleasure and pain.
Then it was over. I didn't keep count, maybe it was 30 strokes, maybe more. I checked my ass in the mirror. Oh wow! My ass cheeks were one big fat welt that was already getting blue in some spots. In other areas my skin had turned white and was about to break.
Our session had come to an end. I thanked Lady Helena and of course took a photo and sent it to Her, so She could see Her handiwork. I love it that i can still feel my ass today. Not as much as i had expected, but enough to be a constant reminder of Lady Helena and the fun we had together...
I started to set up everything 30 minutes before the appointed time. I didn't know what She had planned, i only knew, that the spanking-machine would come to use. Like always, i was getting nervous while i was waiting. I was tired and not really in the mood for a spanking. I began to mantra and that helped me to prepare mentally.
5 minutes before the time, i received an email. Lady Helena was running late and asked to delay our session by one hour. No problem, but it didn't help with my nervousness.
An hour later, i saw Lady Helena coming online in Skype. Some final instructions for me to follow and a few minutes later, She was calling. Like always, hearing Her voice let me relax immediately and i was wondering why i had been nervous.
After a bit of small-talk, She instructed me to get on all fours in front of the spanking-machine. She armed it, judging from the duration the motor was running, She had set it to a rather high level, maybe i had been right to be nervous...
Lady Helena told me, that She would be using me as a guinea-pig for Her upcoming session. Wow, what an honor, i loved that! She started to take me down into a trance and to tell a story. I don't want to spoil anything, so i won't go into details, but i loved the story!
Soon i had forgotten about the cane that was behind me, ready to strike and the story didn't let me expect it either. Then it suddenly took a twist.
Swish!!! Before i realized what was happening, the cane had landed across both ass-cheeks and it hit me hard. Without a warm-up, this was on the brink of my pain threshold and there was no pleasure in my moans. She hit me a couple more times and i think She even increased the strength. How long would i be able to stand this without begging for mercy? I didn't want to disappoint Lady Helena, She was having so much fun...
"This probably woke you up a bit..."
A bit? What an understatement... Lady Helena ended the trance and we continued the small-talk. Was it over so soon? I wasn't sure if i wanted more or not...
"You said, you have vacations next week and don't have to sit. So i can spank you as much as i want, right?"
Yes, i had said that and i was regretting it a bit, but i was slowly getting into the mood for more pain and i certainly didn't want to spoil my Commander's fun.
She continued to spank me randomly while we were talking. I was now getting into the mood, too and the pain became pleasure. Lady Helena increased the strength whenever my moans got quieter, She managed to keep me in a perfect balance between pleasure and pain.
Then it was over. I didn't keep count, maybe it was 30 strokes, maybe more. I checked my ass in the mirror. Oh wow! My ass cheeks were one big fat welt that was already getting blue in some spots. In other areas my skin had turned white and was about to break.
Our session had come to an end. I thanked Lady Helena and of course took a photo and sent it to Her, so She could see Her handiwork. I love it that i can still feel my ass today. Not as much as i had expected, but enough to be a constant reminder of Lady Helena and the fun we had together...
Tied down and forced to cum
The last few days have been an interesting experience. I had a short call with Domina on Friday to plan our next session and during that, She gave me Her newest file. I loved to have it as one of the first and of course, i listened as soon as we had finished speaking.
Dark Room - Oblivion is a little confusing and while i notice it's effect, it's hard to describe. But i will try... Domina's voice has already become a constant companion in the back of my mind. Whatever i think or do, a little part of my mind is thinking of Her. Now, with the conditioning from the new file, She's invading my memories. It started subtle after the first listening. Whenever i recalled a sexy memory, the voice in the back of my head came forward and with every time i listen to the file, the effect becomes stronger. Eventually, She will become a part of all my sexy memories...
Yesterday, we had a very fun session. I was laying on my back, pinned down to the bed with medical restraints. The cuffs around my ankles, thighs, waist and chest didn't leave me much room to struggle. My electro-stimulation device was set up with electrodes on the head and base of my cock and the common pole on a butt-plug. It was connected to the remote-box, ready to be controlled by my Owner.
I reached up to the headboard and held the metal plates that were attached to my wrist-cuffs against the electromagnets that were mounted there. "i'm ready, Domina!"
She teased me a bit that She would lock me now and that i would be there for a while, before She pressed the button. Click! I was now completely at Her mercy, the only escape being a pair of scissors, so i would be able to cut the restraints (which would be costly to replace) in case of an emergency.
Domina Shelle started to take me into a light trance and while She was counting me down, i felt light tingles on my cock. Was She already using the estim-device or was it just my arousal? She finished the induction and started to really tease me. Wow! I had not expected Her to ramp it up so quickly. She increased the power level until it was becoming almost painful, then She turned it down as quickly. After a few cycles and playing with the settings a bit, She knew exactly how to get me moaning and Her reactions told me, that She was having a lot of fun teasing me. Oh, how i loved to be Her entertainment!
She began to tell a fantasy where i was the attraction at Her party. Being bent over a bench and tied down, i was fucked from both ends by Her and Her guests. I was getting even hornier and She started to edge me. Again and again and again, each time getting me a little closer. Initially, i had tried to hold back, but soon, i was just putty in Her hands and let it happened.
She alternated the edging with periods of frustratingly light stimulation, letting me cool down a bit and making me desperate for more. I don't know how often She edged me before She finally didn't turn the stimulation off and told me to cum. The power was on a high level at that point and i knew that it would feel 10 times more intense once i'd start to cum. Whenever i had been using the estim-device on my own, i had turned it down at this moment, because i was unable to stand that amount of stimulation. But what would Domina do? Any resistance would have been futile, so i didn't try to hold back. I started to cum and immediately i found myself begging for Her to turn it down. The stimulation prevented me to relax my muscles and thus, i was unable to ejaculate.
After keeping me begging for a couple of seconds (i think... it felt way longer), She finally turned the signal off and my cum started to dibble out. It was like the opposite of a ruined orgasm, cumming without spurting... an interesting new experience...
I was spent after this session, my muscles felt a little sore, i even had a headache for a minute from cumming so hard, but i loved it. Domina had fun, too. She wants to do that again very soon... i can't wait...
Dark Room - Oblivion is a little confusing and while i notice it's effect, it's hard to describe. But i will try... Domina's voice has already become a constant companion in the back of my mind. Whatever i think or do, a little part of my mind is thinking of Her. Now, with the conditioning from the new file, She's invading my memories. It started subtle after the first listening. Whenever i recalled a sexy memory, the voice in the back of my head came forward and with every time i listen to the file, the effect becomes stronger. Eventually, She will become a part of all my sexy memories...
Yesterday, we had a very fun session. I was laying on my back, pinned down to the bed with medical restraints. The cuffs around my ankles, thighs, waist and chest didn't leave me much room to struggle. My electro-stimulation device was set up with electrodes on the head and base of my cock and the common pole on a butt-plug. It was connected to the remote-box, ready to be controlled by my Owner.
I reached up to the headboard and held the metal plates that were attached to my wrist-cuffs against the electromagnets that were mounted there. "i'm ready, Domina!"
She teased me a bit that She would lock me now and that i would be there for a while, before She pressed the button. Click! I was now completely at Her mercy, the only escape being a pair of scissors, so i would be able to cut the restraints (which would be costly to replace) in case of an emergency.
Domina Shelle started to take me into a light trance and while She was counting me down, i felt light tingles on my cock. Was She already using the estim-device or was it just my arousal? She finished the induction and started to really tease me. Wow! I had not expected Her to ramp it up so quickly. She increased the power level until it was becoming almost painful, then She turned it down as quickly. After a few cycles and playing with the settings a bit, She knew exactly how to get me moaning and Her reactions told me, that She was having a lot of fun teasing me. Oh, how i loved to be Her entertainment!
She began to tell a fantasy where i was the attraction at Her party. Being bent over a bench and tied down, i was fucked from both ends by Her and Her guests. I was getting even hornier and She started to edge me. Again and again and again, each time getting me a little closer. Initially, i had tried to hold back, but soon, i was just putty in Her hands and let it happened.
She alternated the edging with periods of frustratingly light stimulation, letting me cool down a bit and making me desperate for more. I don't know how often She edged me before She finally didn't turn the stimulation off and told me to cum. The power was on a high level at that point and i knew that it would feel 10 times more intense once i'd start to cum. Whenever i had been using the estim-device on my own, i had turned it down at this moment, because i was unable to stand that amount of stimulation. But what would Domina do? Any resistance would have been futile, so i didn't try to hold back. I started to cum and immediately i found myself begging for Her to turn it down. The stimulation prevented me to relax my muscles and thus, i was unable to ejaculate.
After keeping me begging for a couple of seconds (i think... it felt way longer), She finally turned the signal off and my cum started to dibble out. It was like the opposite of a ruined orgasm, cumming without spurting... an interesting new experience...
I was spent after this session, my muscles felt a little sore, i even had a headache for a minute from cumming so hard, but i loved it. Domina had fun, too. She wants to do that again very soon... i can't wait...
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