After we had to reschedule a few times, i finally got my deserved spanking for sloppy dusting yesterday evening. I was going to receive 20 strokes for the dusting and a birthday spanking on top.
Before we started, Lady Helena instructed me to shove two ice-cubes up my ass. She likes to do that, much more than i do. The initial cold is quite uncomfortable and when the ice has molten, it creates the constant urge to expel the water, like a tiny enema...
Lady Helena informed me, that i won't have to count the strokes, because She was going to administer them randomly while She used the ON and OFF triggers from Trigger of Insanity.
So She triggered me to stroke and started to cane my ass. She did a great job at distracting my thoughts by sexy talk, having me tell Her about my fantasies and using the triggers and so She was able to catch me by surprise with many of the strokes, each time triggering a moan of pain and pleasure from me.
After about 30 strokes, She gave me a choice. I could either ask for 30 more at the same strength or less strokes but with increasing strength. My ass was already covered in welts and i had gotten used to the pain, so i asked Her to increase the strength. This time She didn't surprise me, but helped me by having me breathe in deeply before each stroke.
The first few strokes were bearable, but then i re-positioned myself slightly to avoid being hit on the already bruised spots and the next stroke landed directly on the spot between my ass-cheeks and my thighs. OUCH! I shifted back a little and the next stroke landed on an already bruised area again.
A few strokes later, i noticed that my skin was breaking and the first drops of blood landed on the floor. I informed Lady Helena, She didn't want to bruise me to much and suggested to stop.
Since the spanking-machine was already armed and ready to strike, i asked for that final stroke, which was at 75% strength. This is the highest setting i have tried so far and i was glad that Lady Helena had suggested to stop...
But our session wasn't finished yet. Since i wasn't allowed to cum, Lady Helena decided that my cock needed to be cooled down. So She ordered me to fill a glass with ice-water and hang my cock into it for 5 minutes. I hated it from the first moment, it wasn't as painful as the spanking, but a kind of pain that didn't arouse me. It just sucked. Lady Helena reminded me of my safeword, but i didn't want to chicken out and use it. After all i was suffering for Her amusement and i could hear how much fun She had. She had mercy after 3 minutes, but seemed to be delighted to have found another weak spot of me. I'm going to avoid giving Her a reason to punish me even more than before...
Shopping with my Owner
I had invited Domina Shelle for an online shopping-tour as a birthday gift and yesterday evening, we had a call to do exactly that.
While She was getting ready to talk, She gave me some instructions in chat, first to mantra and edge and then to clean the kitchen sink. Once i was finished, She called and we began to shop.
She had already instructed me earlier to find shoes of a certain style that She liked and so i sent Her the links. I had also added another pair that i though would look great on Her sexy feet and She liked all of them.
So it didn't take long before She had decided and i ordered two pairs of shoes for Her.
We continued to talk and my beautiful Owner shared some photos with me that She hadn't published yet. Then She told me to stand up and walk up and down in my 6" heels while She instructed me how to walk and sway my hips. I don't have enough practice with walking in high-heels, so i was panting after a few minutes and She finally allowed me to sit down again. Next, She showed me how to moan like a girl and i followed Her example. Moaning together was fun and exciting!
Since my own birthday had only been a week before Her's, She asked if i wanted to buy something for myself, too. I had already expected that and sent Her the link to a cute latex mask that i had been considering. I had been unable to decide for one or two hair-pieces and the colors, so i asked for Her decision. She liked the version with two ponytails best and we both agreed that the colors like on the photo would look best with my maid uniform.
We continued to talk about my fetish clothing and the toys i have and i shared some photos with Her and soon our time was up.
She didn't let me go without some instructions. First i was allowed to use my fleshlight to edge 3 times while wearing nipple-clamps. I had to practice moaning while i edged and although it was a bit odd at first and i soon started to enjoy it.
Then i prepared for bedtime. Domina Shelle wanted me to sleep chained to my bed, so i chained my hands to the headboard. It was not the first time i had tried to sleep tied, but it had always excited me too much to be able to sleep. This time was no different, but unlike the other times, i didn't dare to disobey and untie myself. I finally fell asleep and during the night i woke up several times with an erection. I must have had sexy dreams that i didn't remember...
maybe i should try to sleep bound more often...
While She was getting ready to talk, She gave me some instructions in chat, first to mantra and edge and then to clean the kitchen sink. Once i was finished, She called and we began to shop.
She had already instructed me earlier to find shoes of a certain style that She liked and so i sent Her the links. I had also added another pair that i though would look great on Her sexy feet and She liked all of them.
So it didn't take long before She had decided and i ordered two pairs of shoes for Her.
We continued to talk and my beautiful Owner shared some photos with me that She hadn't published yet. Then She told me to stand up and walk up and down in my 6" heels while She instructed me how to walk and sway my hips. I don't have enough practice with walking in high-heels, so i was panting after a few minutes and She finally allowed me to sit down again. Next, She showed me how to moan like a girl and i followed Her example. Moaning together was fun and exciting!
Since my own birthday had only been a week before Her's, She asked if i wanted to buy something for myself, too. I had already expected that and sent Her the link to a cute latex mask that i had been considering. I had been unable to decide for one or two hair-pieces and the colors, so i asked for Her decision. She liked the version with two ponytails best and we both agreed that the colors like on the photo would look best with my maid uniform.
We continued to talk about my fetish clothing and the toys i have and i shared some photos with Her and soon our time was up.
She didn't let me go without some instructions. First i was allowed to use my fleshlight to edge 3 times while wearing nipple-clamps. I had to practice moaning while i edged and although it was a bit odd at first and i soon started to enjoy it.
Then i prepared for bedtime. Domina Shelle wanted me to sleep chained to my bed, so i chained my hands to the headboard. It was not the first time i had tried to sleep tied, but it had always excited me too much to be able to sleep. This time was no different, but unlike the other times, i didn't dare to disobey and untie myself. I finally fell asleep and during the night i woke up several times with an erection. I must have had sexy dreams that i didn't remember...
maybe i should try to sleep bound more often...
Permission to release
After 4 days of teasing with the stop-and-go game, i was so frustrated, that i had to ask Lady Helena for release. To my delight, i got Her permission and so i inserted a butt-plug and started to stroke to the first edge. I stopped like i was told to and repeated my mantra, then i was finally able release.
After all that frustration, it felt wonderful and i didn't mind licking my cum from the floor.
To my surprise, i was horny very soon again. I don't know whether this is from the teasing the days before or if there were some suggestions in Her file that caused it, but i was very happy not to have the 'post orgasm blues' like i have had before... thank You, Lady Helena!
After all that frustration, it felt wonderful and i didn't mind licking my cum from the floor.
To my surprise, i was horny very soon again. I don't know whether this is from the teasing the days before or if there were some suggestions in Her file that caused it, but i was very happy not to have the 'post orgasm blues' like i have had before... thank You, Lady Helena!
Intense teasing and denial
Lady Helena has released an amazing recording this week. Trigger of Insanity is teasing and denial at it's best! After a long induction, She installed two triggers in my slave-brain, ON and OFF.
With ON, She can turn on my arousal and cause my hand to stroke my cock, but with OFF, my hand falls to my side and my arousal fades away. I will even trigger myself with it if i should get too close to the edge...
Of course, She tested the triggers during the session and had me stop and go several times. I loved it and so i was eager to listen to the included loop-file immediately.
I soon understood why the session is called Trigger of Insanity... Lady Helena played the stop-and-go game for the whole 15 minutes of the loop, only allowing me to stroke for a few seconds, before telling me to stop again and within minutes, i was whimpering with sexual frustration.
The recording would require me to listen to the loop twice for three days, but Lady Helena had slightly different instructions for me. I will have to do four days, with four loops daily before i may ask Her for release...
I'm already so frustrated after the first day, that i can barely wait until Saturday, this will probably be the hardest period of orgasmdenial i have experienced so far...
With ON, She can turn on my arousal and cause my hand to stroke my cock, but with OFF, my hand falls to my side and my arousal fades away. I will even trigger myself with it if i should get too close to the edge...
Of course, She tested the triggers during the session and had me stop and go several times. I loved it and so i was eager to listen to the included loop-file immediately.
I soon understood why the session is called Trigger of Insanity... Lady Helena played the stop-and-go game for the whole 15 minutes of the loop, only allowing me to stroke for a few seconds, before telling me to stop again and within minutes, i was whimpering with sexual frustration.
The recording would require me to listen to the loop twice for three days, but Lady Helena had slightly different instructions for me. I will have to do four days, with four loops daily before i may ask Her for release...
I'm already so frustrated after the first day, that i can barely wait until Saturday, this will probably be the hardest period of orgasmdenial i have experienced so far...
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