I'm having problems with my phone-line since a week now and have only limited internet access and thus, I'm behind with updates. So, let me recap the last couple of days...
Thursday was the day, where I had to clean my bathroom with a toothbrush. I knew, that it would be boring, but I was looking forward to do it anyway. As soon as I returned home, I put on my maid outfit and started with the shower. I was very motivated and time went by quickly. After the shower was sparkling clean, already 45 minutes had passed and I started to realize, how long this task would get. My motivation had diminished and I was not really looking forward to do the rest of the room. Only the pleasure of obedience kept me going.
Next were the bathtub and the tiles around it. While the shower had lots of smaller surfaces and I had a little sense of achievement frequently, I now had big plain surfaces in front of me, which made the task extra boring. After a while, I started to focus only on the spot that I was cleaning and as I didn't have to think much about what I was doing, I started to chant my mantra. It helped me a lot. I forgot the time and when I was finished with that part of the bathroom, already 90 minutes had passed.
The rest of the room had more edges and smaller areas again and I could work from one to the next. The toilet, window and heating, the sink and mirror and all the tiles around and between. It took me another hour, but that part passed quickly again and only the floor was left, the biggest surface of all. I took the same approach as with the tub and after the first third, I barely took noticed of my surroundings. There was only that single tile I was cleaning at the moment and my mantra in my head.
Finally, after 3 hours, I was finished. I was exhausted, relieved, but also very happy, that I had obeyed my Owner. I took some pictures and reported my finished task to Her. I got a reply only a few minutes later! She was very pleased with my report and She even send me a file as an early birthday-gift!
Saturday night, i sat outside, enjoyed the silence and reflected on the feelings I have for Domina Shelle. I wrote down things that seemed suitable for my new maid-mantra and I also thought about the personalized session that She gave me for my birthday. I had so many ideas, more maid-training, chastity and a lot of others and I couldn't decide for one. But I still had plenty of time for that...
By Sunday evening, I had decided. I sent the session draft to my Owner, together with my proposal for my new mantra, but I don't want to write about details, before I have heared Her opinion...
Maid training and proof of control
Today was like a milestone in my life as Domina Shelle's slave.
When I got home, I changed into my maid outfit and prepared dinner. I ate and then started to clean my home. I had a call with my Owner later, where She would deepen my maid training and I wanted everything to be tidy for that occasion.
I went online 15 minutes before the appointed time and not much later, Domina Shelle messaged me. She told me, that She would be a little late and until then, She instructed me to clean my kitchen-sink with a toothbrush while doing my mantra. I didn't think and obeyed immediately and the work already brought my mind into a meditative state. When I was happy with my work, I continued my mantra while waiting for my Domina. 5 minutes later, She wrote again that She'd be almost ready and I should clean the bathroom-sink now. I got back to work and with every minute, I felt more obedient. I finished only a minute before Her next message: She told me to kneel down and mantra some more minutes and then the time had come and I had an incoming call.
We talked for a few minutes and then, She began to take me into trance. When I have a call with my Owner, I always go into trance extra fast and deep...
While I was under, She implanted new suggestions that will help me with my maid duties. As I write this, my mind is already thinking about thing that need to be tidied or cleaned and I'm looking forward to get to work tomorrow.
What She did then, was a huge surprise and a prove of Her power over my mind. She told me to repeat after Her, like She has done before. "I love my Domina", "I will always obey my Domina". I always love to repeat after Her, and I obey without thinking. Then came a new sentence: "I want to tell my Domina a secret about me"... while I was repeating that, a shiver went down my spine and I got a little nervous, but when She told me to go on and tell Her, I didn't hesitate. I opened up completely and told Her something very private, something only a few people know. I'm still surprised that I did this so willingly, but I feel, that the bond between us has grown from this.
She finished the call with letting me stroke counting me to an orgasm. I had no control over it. I was on the edge with nine and when She reached ten, I had a wonderful orgasm.
I have a couple of tasks now for the next days. Tomorrow, I'll be cleaning the whole bathroom with the toothbrush. I will likely take most of the evening, but I'm looking forward to it!
Domina Shelle also allowed me to write my own maid mantra. I have time until monday.
And the best of all is, that She wants to make a special file just for me! This is so wonderful, I could cry from joy! I have one week time to send Her my ideas...
I'm still emotionally overloaded and I will go to bed now as the happiest maid on earth!
When I got home, I changed into my maid outfit and prepared dinner. I ate and then started to clean my home. I had a call with my Owner later, where She would deepen my maid training and I wanted everything to be tidy for that occasion.
I went online 15 minutes before the appointed time and not much later, Domina Shelle messaged me. She told me, that She would be a little late and until then, She instructed me to clean my kitchen-sink with a toothbrush while doing my mantra. I didn't think and obeyed immediately and the work already brought my mind into a meditative state. When I was happy with my work, I continued my mantra while waiting for my Domina. 5 minutes later, She wrote again that She'd be almost ready and I should clean the bathroom-sink now. I got back to work and with every minute, I felt more obedient. I finished only a minute before Her next message: She told me to kneel down and mantra some more minutes and then the time had come and I had an incoming call.
We talked for a few minutes and then, She began to take me into trance. When I have a call with my Owner, I always go into trance extra fast and deep...
While I was under, She implanted new suggestions that will help me with my maid duties. As I write this, my mind is already thinking about thing that need to be tidied or cleaned and I'm looking forward to get to work tomorrow.
What She did then, was a huge surprise and a prove of Her power over my mind. She told me to repeat after Her, like She has done before. "I love my Domina", "I will always obey my Domina". I always love to repeat after Her, and I obey without thinking. Then came a new sentence: "I want to tell my Domina a secret about me"... while I was repeating that, a shiver went down my spine and I got a little nervous, but when She told me to go on and tell Her, I didn't hesitate. I opened up completely and told Her something very private, something only a few people know. I'm still surprised that I did this so willingly, but I feel, that the bond between us has grown from this.
She finished the call with letting me stroke counting me to an orgasm. I had no control over it. I was on the edge with nine and when She reached ten, I had a wonderful orgasm.
I have a couple of tasks now for the next days. Tomorrow, I'll be cleaning the whole bathroom with the toothbrush. I will likely take most of the evening, but I'm looking forward to it!
Domina Shelle also allowed me to write my own maid mantra. I have time until monday.
And the best of all is, that She wants to make a special file just for me! This is so wonderful, I could cry from joy! I have one week time to send Her my ideas...
I'm still emotionally overloaded and I will go to bed now as the happiest maid on earth!
Brainwashed Addiction
Domina Shelle's new file Brainwashed Addiction is somehow special. With 20 minutes, it is rather short and I think, I didn't fall as fast as with other files, but judging from the amnesia effects I experience, I must have been very deep.
There are two versions, one with few effects and one with many. I always love binaural beats and when Domina's voice is panning back and forth and so I listened to the later one.
I'm getting confused when I try to think about the session, the only thing I know is, that She made sure, that nobody can take me into trance and program me without Her permission.
I haven't listen to any other hypnotist than my Owner and Lady Helena since I became Her slave. It has been one of Her rules and She made sure, that I'll never break this rule. It's like a chastity device for my brain that prevents me from cheating...
There are two versions, one with few effects and one with many. I always love binaural beats and when Domina's voice is panning back and forth and so I listened to the later one.
I'm getting confused when I try to think about the session, the only thing I know is, that She made sure, that nobody can take me into trance and program me without Her permission.
I haven't listen to any other hypnotist than my Owner and Lady Helena since I became Her slave. It has been one of Her rules and She made sure, that I'll never break this rule. It's like a chastity device for my brain that prevents me from cheating...
Living on the Edge
Domina Shelle's new file Living on the Edge is such a tease! I have some difficulties to remember the exact order of what happened, but She teased me with having me grab my cock without moving, then stroking very slowly, only to render my hand heavy and paralyzed again. She did this a couple of times while She was firing my arousal with Her sexy voice.
She also woke me up twice during the session, or at least I thought, I was awake...
The first time must have been half way through the recording. At first, I felt awake, but She kept talking and a bin-aural sound was playing in the background. Soon I felt like my mind was being dragged back and I was on the edge of falling back down. With every second, it got more difficult to keep my eyes open and when my Owner finally told me to close them, I fell rapidly back into a deep trance.
The second time was late into the recording. I thought, that the file was about to end and was already about to get up, when the sleep trigger surprised me. I dropped instantly and was back in Her realm.
When I finally woke up for real, I had an irresistible urge to stroke. Domina has strengthened my desire to edge without cumming with this recording and She instructed me to edge three times in a row every day. She gave me the option to cum after the first time, but as Her chastity-slave, I will not be using this. I don't want to have a choice about that!
She also woke me up twice during the session, or at least I thought, I was awake...
The first time must have been half way through the recording. At first, I felt awake, but She kept talking and a bin-aural sound was playing in the background. Soon I felt like my mind was being dragged back and I was on the edge of falling back down. With every second, it got more difficult to keep my eyes open and when my Owner finally told me to close them, I fell rapidly back into a deep trance.
The second time was late into the recording. I thought, that the file was about to end and was already about to get up, when the sleep trigger surprised me. I dropped instantly and was back in Her realm.
When I finally woke up for real, I had an irresistible urge to stroke. Domina has strengthened my desire to edge without cumming with this recording and She instructed me to edge three times in a row every day. She gave me the option to cum after the first time, but as Her chastity-slave, I will not be using this. I don't want to have a choice about that!
The Allure
Last night, Lady Helena visited me in my dreams again. This time, She sat on my face and smothered me, while Her slave-girl gave me a blow-job and tried to force me to cum. I was fighting to hold back and She almost won, when my alarm-clock "saved" me. Damn...! ;)
I listened to The Allure in the evening and when She used the trigger that I learned from the previous listening, my mind started to spin around and I fell fast and deep. I could project my thoughts into the story even better this time. I could visualize the garden, the trees and flowers, Domina Shelle described and all the colors. I could even hear the birds!
When I woke up, I felt extremely happy and stayed so for the rest of the day. My Owner has tightened the restraints that keep me under Her control once more, but for me, this feels like liberation and completion. It's easy to let go with a guide like her!
I listened to The Allure in the evening and when She used the trigger that I learned from the previous listening, my mind started to spin around and I fell fast and deep. I could project my thoughts into the story even better this time. I could visualize the garden, the trees and flowers, Domina Shelle described and all the colors. I could even hear the birds!
When I woke up, I felt extremely happy and stayed so for the rest of the day. My Owner has tightened the restraints that keep me under Her control once more, but for me, this feels like liberation and completion. It's easy to let go with a guide like her!
Bound and helpless
My dreams are getting even more interesting! Last night, Lady Helena visited me in a dream. She tied my hands in an arm-binder behind my back and had me lay face down on the bed. Then She spread my legs, tied them to the bed-posts and fucked me hard with Her strapon. Then the scene changed and I was kneeling in front of Her. I hadn't cleaned myself properly and as a punishment, She made me clean Her strapon with my mouth.
I loved this dream and it's so great, that I'm having more of that kind lately!
In the afternoon, I listened to Fantasy House - Helpless and it exceeded all my expectations! My Owner made me feel bound and helpless already during the induction and at one point while counting me down, She suddenly slapped my face to show me, how helpless I was. The matching sound-effects came as a surprise and made me cringe. It felt so real, that I could feel the sting!
After taking me completely into trance, Domina Shelle installed a new trigger. This one will make me feel an urge to be bound and helpless immediately when She uses it. Then She continued to tell the story of how She would leave me alone with Her friend Lucy.
But before She left, She used the new trigger and was laughing hard as I frantically tried to find something to tie myself up. In the bedroom, I found a pair of handcuffs attached to the head of the bed and after getting naked, I tied myself down. Lucy entered with a riding-crop in Her hand and started to slap my legs, because I had tied myself the wrong way. Then She tied me face down and began to stroke my ass while I had to beg for more. The sound-effects let me jump again and all this made me extremely horny.
Finally, she used a special butt-plug on me. It rotated and pulsed and luckily, She let me stroke, because at that point, I was so turned on, that I could barely stand it. She would even have made me cum, but in the back of my mind, I didn't want to. I think I should only cum during a session, when my Owner tells me to listen to it and not when I listen on my own. That would be too easy... ;)
I loved this dream and it's so great, that I'm having more of that kind lately!
In the afternoon, I listened to Fantasy House - Helpless and it exceeded all my expectations! My Owner made me feel bound and helpless already during the induction and at one point while counting me down, She suddenly slapped my face to show me, how helpless I was. The matching sound-effects came as a surprise and made me cringe. It felt so real, that I could feel the sting!
After taking me completely into trance, Domina Shelle installed a new trigger. This one will make me feel an urge to be bound and helpless immediately when She uses it. Then She continued to tell the story of how She would leave me alone with Her friend Lucy.
But before She left, She used the new trigger and was laughing hard as I frantically tried to find something to tie myself up. In the bedroom, I found a pair of handcuffs attached to the head of the bed and after getting naked, I tied myself down. Lucy entered with a riding-crop in Her hand and started to slap my legs, because I had tied myself the wrong way. Then She tied me face down and began to stroke my ass while I had to beg for more. The sound-effects let me jump again and all this made me extremely horny.
Finally, she used a special butt-plug on me. It rotated and pulsed and luckily, She let me stroke, because at that point, I was so turned on, that I could barely stand it. She would even have made me cum, but in the back of my mind, I didn't want to. I think I should only cum during a session, when my Owner tells me to listen to it and not when I listen on my own. That would be too easy... ;)
Lots of teasing
I had one of those dreams again, where girls try to seduce me. This time, there were three girls and my dream was centered around their legs and hosiery. One of them was wearing white stockings with garters, the other had fishnet-stockings and the third wore black pantyhose with some kind of pattern. I was driving them somewhere in my car and they made sure, that I could see a lot of their legs.
I don't remember much more and I can't explain, why I suddenly have so much of those dreams, but whatever reason this have, I love it!
Domina Shelle had a discount on her website today. Buy one file, get a second one for free. So I browsed the categories and quickly found Fantasy House Dungeon - Sissy. From the same category, I chose Fantasy House - Helpless as my free file.
I listened to the sissy file in the afternoon and it exceeded my expectations! I had been in Domina Shelle's Fantasy House once before for puppy training, but this time, She led me to another room, where She transformed me into Her lesbian lover. She had me lay on Her bed and began to tease me very slowly, first with Her fingers, then with Her mouth and tongue. My arousal grew quickly, but it felt different. The feelings didn't come from my cock, but from deeper inside, like if I had a pussy.
Domina made me so horny, that I was moving my hips, craving for more. She finally took a double-ended dildo and fucked both of us with it. I could feel every sensation She described and when She told me, I had a wonderful mental orgasm.
It took me a while to come back from this trance and I continued to feel the bliss after I woke up. Not much later, the new file The Allure was available on Her website. I bought it immediately, but waited until the evening to listen to it.
The induction is a bit different in this session. Domina tells a story and while listening to it, I got so caught by it, that I didn't notice, how deep I was falling. At one point, a rythmic music started and this brought me all they way down into a deeper trance than I had every experienced before. It felt like drifting back and forth between daydreaming and being at the verge of sleep and I could see everything She described in vivid images. Her sexy storytelling had the desired effect on my and when She told me to get hard, my cock sprang to attention within a second. I don't remember all the details from the story, but I can tell, that it was highly erotic and I can't wait to listen again.
She also taught me a new trigger (or did I know this already and it was just a reinforcement?) that will help me to return to that deep trance and I'm looking forward to the feeling of falling fast and deep when She will use it on me!
I don't remember much more and I can't explain, why I suddenly have so much of those dreams, but whatever reason this have, I love it!
Domina Shelle had a discount on her website today. Buy one file, get a second one for free. So I browsed the categories and quickly found Fantasy House Dungeon - Sissy. From the same category, I chose Fantasy House - Helpless as my free file.
I listened to the sissy file in the afternoon and it exceeded my expectations! I had been in Domina Shelle's Fantasy House once before for puppy training, but this time, She led me to another room, where She transformed me into Her lesbian lover. She had me lay on Her bed and began to tease me very slowly, first with Her fingers, then with Her mouth and tongue. My arousal grew quickly, but it felt different. The feelings didn't come from my cock, but from deeper inside, like if I had a pussy.
Domina made me so horny, that I was moving my hips, craving for more. She finally took a double-ended dildo and fucked both of us with it. I could feel every sensation She described and when She told me, I had a wonderful mental orgasm.
It took me a while to come back from this trance and I continued to feel the bliss after I woke up. Not much later, the new file The Allure was available on Her website. I bought it immediately, but waited until the evening to listen to it.
The induction is a bit different in this session. Domina tells a story and while listening to it, I got so caught by it, that I didn't notice, how deep I was falling. At one point, a rythmic music started and this brought me all they way down into a deeper trance than I had every experienced before. It felt like drifting back and forth between daydreaming and being at the verge of sleep and I could see everything She described in vivid images. Her sexy storytelling had the desired effect on my and when She told me to get hard, my cock sprang to attention within a second. I don't remember all the details from the story, but I can tell, that it was highly erotic and I can't wait to listen again.
She also taught me a new trigger (or did I know this already and it was just a reinforcement?) that will help me to return to that deep trance and I'm looking forward to the feeling of falling fast and deep when She will use it on me!
Ruined
I'm a bit late with updates, but there hasn't been that much going on...
I have continued to listen to Exploited every day and last night was the 7th time. This allowed me to chose to cum or stay in chastity. As much as I love to be chaste, I also want to get my ruined-orgasm count down to zero, so I decided to cum and ruin my orgasm. I still have 6 left and I really crave to have a full orgasm now! This is getting much harder than I thought...
Since a few days, I'm waking up from dreams several times each night. In some of them, women are flirting with me and try to seduce me and every time, I have an inner fight between staying loyal to my Owner and giving in to their attempts. This is strange, I rarely have dreamed that often and even fewer have those dreams been of an erotic nature. I wonder if this is a side-effect of Exploited. The timing would fit, but I don't remember such suggestions from listening...
I have continued to listen to Exploited every day and last night was the 7th time. This allowed me to chose to cum or stay in chastity. As much as I love to be chaste, I also want to get my ruined-orgasm count down to zero, so I decided to cum and ruin my orgasm. I still have 6 left and I really crave to have a full orgasm now! This is getting much harder than I thought...
Since a few days, I'm waking up from dreams several times each night. In some of them, women are flirting with me and try to seduce me and every time, I have an inner fight between staying loyal to my Owner and giving in to their attempts. This is strange, I rarely have dreamed that often and even fewer have those dreams been of an erotic nature. I wonder if this is a side-effect of Exploited. The timing would fit, but I don't remember such suggestions from listening...
A sore butt
I woke up with sore muscles in my butt from wearing high-heels and ballet-boots for so long yesterday. It felt a bit like having been spanked and I quite enjoyed that feeling.
When I returned home, I was in the mood for more and so, I took a heavy paddle and started to spank myself. I continued until my arms got tired and I couldn't spank hard enough any more. I looked into the mirror to check the result, but it doesn't look as sore as it felt. The ache in my butt-cheeks had doubled and I felt it with every movement. I always love the mood I'm in after a spanking. I felt calm and relaxed, perfect to fall into trance.
I listened to Exploited once more and I fell even deeper this time. My whole body felt like it was far away and when Domina told me to stroke, my cock felt numb. Even if I'd wanted to, I would have been unable to cum or even edge!
I'm still undecided if I should take the opportunity to cum after listening 7 times. On some days, I want to stay chaste, but other times, I'd like to cum and reduce my ruined-orgasm count. I think, it will be best to let Domina decide...
When I returned home, I was in the mood for more and so, I took a heavy paddle and started to spank myself. I continued until my arms got tired and I couldn't spank hard enough any more. I looked into the mirror to check the result, but it doesn't look as sore as it felt. The ache in my butt-cheeks had doubled and I felt it with every movement. I always love the mood I'm in after a spanking. I felt calm and relaxed, perfect to fall into trance.
I listened to Exploited once more and I fell even deeper this time. My whole body felt like it was far away and when Domina told me to stroke, my cock felt numb. Even if I'd wanted to, I would have been unable to cum or even edge!
I'm still undecided if I should take the opportunity to cum after listening 7 times. On some days, I want to stay chaste, but other times, I'd like to cum and reduce my ruined-orgasm count. I think, it will be best to let Domina decide...
Exploited
I have listened to Exploited a second time last night and I was again stunned, how powerful it is. I felt very submissive and in need for Domina Shelle's control when I went to bed and this morning I woke early. Unlike my usual Sunday routine, I didn't turn over and sleep a little longer. I needed to get up and do my chores!
After a quick coffee, I got dressed in my maids uniform, put on my make-up and wig and started cleaning. I only had a short break to cook lunch and then continued until my feet hurt too much in my 6" heels. I allowed myself to take them off to wipe the floor, but I put them on again after I finished.
Since I was already dressed up, I got a little creative and made a new header picture for my Twitter. It's a representation of my position at my Owner's feet, where I belong.
I'm quite happy with the result...
I did some ballet-boot training in the evening. I can stand in them quite comfortable now, but I still have to bend my knees a bit. I even managed to walk a few steps, not much, maybe 20 meters, but I'm getting more secure and my progress is motivating me to continue training. I only stopped, because my ankles started to hurt and I didn't want to injure myself.
I will listen to Exploited again in bed. I'm looking forward to fall deeper into Domina Shelle's control, but also to get an opportunity to masturbate a bit since there were no other stroking instructions today...
After a quick coffee, I got dressed in my maids uniform, put on my make-up and wig and started cleaning. I only had a short break to cook lunch and then continued until my feet hurt too much in my 6" heels. I allowed myself to take them off to wipe the floor, but I put them on again after I finished.
I'm quite happy with the result...
I did some ballet-boot training in the evening. I can stand in them quite comfortable now, but I still have to bend my knees a bit. I even managed to walk a few steps, not much, maybe 20 meters, but I'm getting more secure and my progress is motivating me to continue training. I only stopped, because my ankles started to hurt and I didn't want to injure myself.
I will listen to Exploited again in bed. I'm looking forward to fall deeper into Domina Shelle's control, but also to get an opportunity to masturbate a bit since there were no other stroking instructions today...
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