Locktober 2021: The Final

 After waiting a few days longer, i had my Locktober release in a double-session with Domina Shelle and Lady Helena. We hadn't spoken for too long and so we had a lot to tell and laugh about. Lady Helena is planning something... i can barely wait, but i don't want to spoil any surprises... and i might have given them a wicked idea...

So, after our chat, i lied back and they started to hypnotize me. Descriptions of erotic scenes and reinforcement of some Locktober suggestions made me horny very quickly. Would they let me cum or were they planning to deny me further? Lady Helena had talked about No-vember... and if they did, would i love or hate it?

Finally, they let me touch and edge and when they told me to cum, it was hard and long, one of the best orgasms i have had in a while... i was still panting and slowly waking up while they were already saying goodbye...

Thank You Domina Shelle and Lady Helena for my favorite month of the year!s

Locktober 2021 - Week 4

 If you haven't listened to Locktober Week 4 - Chastity Tease, yet, please stop reading. The below text contains spoilers that might ruin your fun...

Locktober 2021 - Week 3

 Day 15:

Week 3 has started and i could barely wait to listen to the new session. This time, Domina Shelle played with dissociating my body from my mind. She has done this in previous sessions, but now, She is using it to ensure chastity and keep me horny and frustrated.

This week's file will condition me to feel more dissociated, the more i approach the edge and moving my hand will become harder. From listening only once, this is already working well and i'm getting an idea of how frustrating this week might become. But, like Domina Shelle said, this is all to protect me from failing, it's for my own good...

Day 16:

OMG, it's only the second day with LOCTOBER 2021 Week-3 - Extreme Dissociation and it's getting intense already. I was looking forward to listen to it and get a chance to stroke a bit for the whole day, but when the time had finally come, Domina's suggestions and instructions only served to leave me even hornier. Being unable to continue to stroke when it's feeling best is so frustrating, but it's like Domina Shelle said... She's protecting me from failing and i know i would have failed already without Her help...

Day 17:

I was having an inner fight the whole day. One part of me wanted to cum so badly, but the other one wanted to stay chaste and enjoy the feeling of permanent arousal.

The dissociation from my own body that Domina's suggestions are creating whenever i stroke does not only add to the frustration i'm feeling, but it also confuses my mind, making it difficult to catch a clear thought about the effect that Domina's suggestions are having on me.

Day 18:

Just half way through this week, but the dissociative effects of Domina's suggestions have become so strong, that i didn't even notice stopping when i got too aroused. Or did i forget that i was stroking and just didn't continue...? Whatever it is, it doesn't feel like i'm having much conscious control over it any more. I just decide to start stroking (do i really or does it just feel like?) and from there on it feels like someone else is moving my hand...

Day 19:

Today was again a day without touching. At first, i thought i wouldn't get too hard, considering that my current suggestions would only lead to more frustration from stroking.

But as the day went by, my craving to listen to Domina's voice grew. Every word of Her seemed to be extra sexy today and it took me longer than usual to come down after the session had ended.

Day 20/21:

It has been a busy weekend and i have been distracted most of the time, so there's not much to tell. The last week of Loctober starts tomorrow... i'm getting the impression, that the part of me that wants to stay chaste is winning. i just don't like the thought of sacrificing all the build-up for a little release...

Locktober 2021 - Week 2

 After getting through week one of Domina's Loctober without bigger difficulties, i now start to notice chastity getting harder. I'm horny most of the time, regardless of sexual stimuli being around or not.

Day 8:

i was so curious to find out what Domina Shelle has in store for me in the second week, but i had to wait until bedtime before i could listen to the new session.

As usual, i don't remember too much from the session, but i can recall, that it's conditioning me to love and crave chastity and being horny. i have being conditioned like that before, but those suggestions have faded a bit and are now coming back all the stronger.

i was allowed some stroking and an edge while listening to this week's session and i enjoyed the feeling so much! To my big surprise, i immediately stopped without any hesitation when i reached the edge. i felt so grateful for being granted some play!

Day 9:

I had been looking forward to stroke again, but today's instructions forbid it. Instead, i was to wear nipple-clamps three times for 10 minutes. 

I went to bed horny and with sore nipples and it took me long to fall asleep...

Day 10:

I was allowed some stroking today and also to use a butt-plug. I wore a prostate-massager in the evening and a couple of times, i felt like i was approaching the edge. I wonder if cumming that way would count as a failure, i need to ask Domina...

Day 11:

Funny... i didn't feel very horny throughout the day... but in the evening, as soon as i started to prepare to listen to this week's file, i started to get aroused. Just thinking about my Owner brought me into the horny and obedient state She wants me to be...

Day 12:

I felt horny the whole day and i wanted to stroke so badly, but it was a no-touching day. I had a hard time concentrating on anything and my goal for the whole day was to go to bed and listen to Domina's voice.

Day 13:

I had a busy day with chores at home and some repairs and the whole time while i was working, i kept Domina Shelle in my mind. Would She be satisfied with my work or did i need to be more thorough?

It was a great way to keep motivated and in the end, i finished more than i had planned.

Day 14:

i have been on the way all day long, so i had plenty of distraction. Else, i would probably have had a very hard time, given that i already woke up horny. I couldn't wait to be back home to finally listen to Domina Shelle's voice and fall asleep thinking of Her...

Locktober 2021 Journal

 Finally, it's Locktober! I have been looking forward to it since Domina Shelle dropped some hints several weeks ago.

As a preparation for the chastity part, Domina Shelle created a session that forced me to start Locktober completely drained... giggles... Cumming so often and back-to-back was exhausting and left me craving to be locked in chastity.

Domina has instructed me to keep a journal for Locktober, so i will add a daily recap of my experiences and feelings below.

Day 1:

Locktober is starting with a week o strict chastity - no touching allowed at all - which wasn't too difficult after two days of being drained.

Eager to start, i sat back and listened to 'The Keyholder', the session for the first week of this month as soon as i could in the evening. I need to listen more often to be able to describe the session properly, but i woke up in a very relaxed state and the impression that Domina is very serious about this year's Locktober and She is having plans that exceed this month...

To my surprise, i didn't feel horny after listening. That part came later when i was watching TV. I was watching a show, nothing erotic at all, when my cock suddenly began to twitch and Domina Shelle was right there in the center of my mind. I fought the urge to touch for some minutes before i managed to concentrate on the TV again.

Day 2:

I woke up horny, with faint memories of dreaming about being dressed in sexy lingerie... i don't remember more details unfortunately. But an erotic dream in the first night already, this is promising to become a very hot month...

The rest of the day was less interesting, i was busy enough to be able to distract myself. Then in the evening, after listening to the 'Keyholder' session, i experienced the same random attacks of arousal like yesterday. From one moment to the other, my mind was centered around Domina Shelle and my cock began to twitch. Especially when i went to bed and tried to sleep... my mind began to form sexy fantasies, causing my cock to get rock hard.

I needed to sleep, so i tried to shake of those fantasies, but soon enough, a new scene would play in my mind. It took me more than an hour before i had success...

Day 3:

Only the 3rd day and i can already notice, how chastity is helping me to focus on my Owner, Domina Shelle. The urge to stroke is growing, but i manage to keep myself distracted with work and my maid chores.

I was grocery shopping during my lunch-break and there was a booth selling candied almonds in from of the store. I love candied almonds so much, they bring back sweet childhood memories, but stroking isn't the only thing that Domina is denying me, She has also forbidden any snacks between meals. So i had to pass on the almonds... very sad, but the feeling of obedience made up for it!

Day 4:

It's getting more difficult to stay focused on normal life. The 'arousal attacks' were more frequent today, but interestingly, i had no urge to touch.

When i woke up from listening to the session for this week, i found an email from Domina Shelle. With a few sentences, She managed to trigger fantasies of Her taking a shower and me trying to peek through the door... Her little assignment to reply with one of my own fantasies left me with wet panties...

Day 5:

Time seemed to crawl today. All i could think about was to finish work and listen to the Lockdown session. I had a strong desire to somehow react to my arousal. Not by stroking, that thought seems to be locked away by Domina, but i would have loved to wear a butt-plug, to feel filled and my prostate being stimulated, but this week is about complete denial and any kind of play is forbidden.

Day 6:

A little writing assignment kept me busy for a while. i like writing assignments, it feels like a kind of meditation, like when i say my mantra, but in an even more focused way.

It sounds strange, but i noticed that i miss wearing a butt-plug even more than stroking. Luckily, Domina Shelle was so kind to allow me to use one tomorrow when i told Her...

Day 7:

I used Domina's permission and wore a butt-plug most of the afternoon. I enjoyed the teasing feeling of it filling me and pressing against my prostate.

I was also allowed some stroking, but no edging. I allowed myself only a little bit of stroking while being plugged, because i was afraid that i might fail and go too far. Only later in bed, i stroked a little longer. I finally had to stop, because i got too close to edging and in that moment, i lost interest in stroking, turned around and fell asleep. Very interesting, i don't remember any suggestion like this...

The first week of Locktober is over now and i'm loving it. I'll write about the second week in a new post...

5 Years!

 5 years ago, i was sitting at the very desk i'm sitting right now. i can still remember the excitement as i printed out the slave-contract, that Domina Shelle had sent me.

I signed it with shaking hands and my heart was beating faster as i scanned it and sent the copy to the woman who would be my Owner from this moment on. There was no way back now...

Looking back, this has been one of the most important and best decisions i have made in my life. In this past 5 years i was kind of reborn. Domina Shelle molded me into a better person, not only in our Domina/slave relationship but also in my vanilla live.

i consider myself very lucky to have found Her and erotic hypnosis. Or was it erotic hypnosis and Her? It sometimes feels like Domina Shelle Rivers found and claimed me... giggles...

She's not only my Owner and Queen but also my life-coach and a friend who listens and supports when i had difficult times.

Thank You, Domina Shelle for being who You are and molding me into who i am now!

Tied and teased

 "Let's tie you to the bed and use the e-stim"... that were Lady Helena's instructions for yesterday's session.

So i had set up my complete set of medical restraints. Cuffs for my ankles, knees and hands, the harness for my upper body and shoulder-straps to prevent sitting up. We talked a bit, then i got into position, stretched my hands over my head and held the metal-plates onto the electromagnets. Lady Helena activated them and i was caught in a spread-eagle position.

She set the e-stim to a comfortable level that was just enough to tease me, but not enough to allow me to cum. Then She started to put me into trance.

She described how She'd restrain my body with metal straps and heavy chains. The touch of the actual restraint made it feel so vivid!

I had expected Her to edge me, probably force me to cum and then continue until i was begging Her to stop, like She did last time we used this setup, but instead, She kept the stimulation on a low level and talked me into a hypnotic sleep.

The session ended after what felt like only a few minutes and i was left alone in my sleep. After a while, i slowly began to wake up and realized that i was still restrained. I began to worry that the release-timer might have failed. I pulled on the restraints, tried to release myself, but i had no chance.

I always have a belt-cutter in reach, but before destroying the expensive restraints, i decided to just wait for a bit. The e-stim was still teasing me and combined with being stuck and not knowing for how long i got incredibly horny. I wanted more stimulation, but no chance.

Time was crawling and it seemed like an eternity until i was finally released. After almost an hour of stimulation, i was finally allowed to stroke and cum. i had expected it to be quick, but my cock was desensitized from the e-stim. It took a while, but finally, i had an awesome orgasm. Thank You, Lady Helena...

My own drawings

 i have created a gallery of my own drawings, linked in the menu on the right or here: https://owned-by-princess-shelle.blogspot.com/p/my-drawings.html

A deserved punishment

 Sessions with both, Domina Shelle and Lady Helena, are always something special. There's a special dynamic between them that makes me feel like their toy, their helpless prey. So i was looking forward to this session, especially since they had instructed me to have the spanking-machine and e-stim device ready. Being spanked and teased at the same time sounded like a lot of fun.

After some talking and laughing, i got in position on the spanking-bench. I tied my legs to one end and positioned my hands on the sides at the other end, ready for the electromagnets to lock them in place. Lady Helena activated them and i immediately felt very helpless.

Instead of the playful session that i had expected, Domina told me that She wasn't pleased with me. I hadn't communicated enough, didn't write reviews, i had been a lazy slave. i knew that. The pandemic and other worries had distracted me a lot and this had turned into laziness. I was in trouble...

While Domina Shelle was telling me what i did wrong, i received several series of hard strokes from Lady Helena. In our previous spanking-sessions, She had always granted me breaks to cope with the pain, but not this time. i was screaming, sobbing and promising to do better.

i don't know how many strokes i received, but finally, they started to play with the e-stim. Lady Helena turned it up until it felt nice, then Domina told me that She would give me a countdown and that i'd cum on zero. She has done that in several of Her recordings and i'm conditioned to orgasm when She says so.

i was wondering why They'd make me cum so early in the session, were They going to keep punishing me afterwards?

The countdown was slowly approaching zero, when suddenly a new series of strokes hit my ass. They were laughing. "Awwwh, did i ruin it for you?" asked Lady Helena, "Will will have to start from 10 again..."

They did this again. And again and again... i don't know how many times, but finally, the countdown reached zero and Domina told me to cum. i came instantly, like i have been conditioned to do. It felt so good!

Then i started to feel the electricity on my now very sensitive cock and the stimulation was getting too much. I started to beg them to turn it down, but they kept me begging a bit before Lady Helena decided to distract me with more cane-strokes. Then, finally, She turned the power down. 

I was a little bit shocked when i saw the welts in the mirror afterwards, but despite the pain, i enjoyed the session, because my Owners had so much fun. And when they are enjoying themselves, it's fun for me, too.

A high-tech fucking-machine

During a session back in summer, Domina Shelle asked me: 'you have a fucking-machine, don't you?'

Yes, i had one, but it wasn't much more than a geared-motor with speed-control. I immediately decided to build something more sophisticated for my Owner.

I started to research and try some concepts the very next day and finally found a concept that seemed promising. Unfortunately, i was forced to keep my flat vanilla-safe for a while, so i couldn't work on any bigger toys. But i had time to think things through properly and so, the actual build went very quickly.

The software was a little bit more tricky. I wanted a smooth movement, so i tried different approaches to accelerate / decelerate the motor, but the movement kept somewhat juddery.

I remembered my graphics lectures back from University... polynomial splines should make a nice smooth movement curve. The first approach with Bezier-curves was already working well, but editing the curve wasn't very intuitive (unless you know how they work).

Some more experiments and i had found the Akima approximation to be a very good solution, yielding a smooth curve and also being easy to edit...

Some photos and a video are here: owned-by-princess-shelle.blogspot.com/p/programmable-fucking-machine.html

For the future, i'm planning to add a feature to create and load pre-sets.