I fell asleep while listening to Mind Numbing Sleep last night. I don't know how many times it had looped, I just removed the headphones and went right back into a deep sleep...
Subjugated Zombie got me on the very edge this time. I was almost trembling with arousal. I edged for a long time after listening, but I automatically slowed down every time I got too close...
There isn't much more to tell today... I'm going to bed and look forward to fall asleep while listening to Princess Shelle's voice...
Mindless Zombie
I listened to Subjugated Zombie yesterday evening, as Princess had instructed. I can remember the suggestion that she used me as her sex-toy and I woke up being incredibly horny. I stroked afterwards until I could take no more without cumming. I suppose that this session will make my chastity month a bigger challenge than I expected...
I listened to Mind Numbing Sleep in bed. Although I didn't fall asleep while listening, I only remember that it added to my arousal...
My little temporary "tattoo" survived the shower in the morning pretty well and when I put my clothes on, I realized that drawing it on my forearm was not the brightest idea. I tried to wash it off, but it didn't fade much. So no short sleeves for the next couple of days... that's going to suck with the muggy weather we're currently having... (note to myself: brain doesn't work properly when horny, think twice!)
I listened to Subjugated Zombie before finishing this journal entry and stroked for more than half an hour afterwards, always staying near the edge. It's still difficult to think straight...
I listened to Mind Numbing Sleep in bed. Although I didn't fall asleep while listening, I only remember that it added to my arousal...
My little temporary "tattoo" survived the shower in the morning pretty well and when I put my clothes on, I realized that drawing it on my forearm was not the brightest idea. I tried to wash it off, but it didn't fade much. So no short sleeves for the next couple of days... that's going to suck with the muggy weather we're currently having... (note to myself: brain doesn't work properly when horny, think twice!)
I listened to Subjugated Zombie before finishing this journal entry and stroked for more than half an hour afterwards, always staying near the edge. It's still difficult to think straight...
Forced Femme - Day two
The first thing I did this morning was to check today's assignments and I was very delighted to find the permission to edge. I'm going to save this for bedtime...
After exercising as commanded and taking a shower, I dressed up again and spent the day in a latex outfit. A white top and a tight black skirt with white ruffles... not to forget the high-heels and my collar.
In the afternoon, Princess Shelle sent the AF trigger, I really like this one!
I listened to the Breasts session from the Forced Femme series afterwards. I was already wearing a bra and breast forms and when I woke up from trance, I began to fondle them. It felt so real and turned me on so much..!
Princess Shelle instructed me to listen to Mind Numbing Sleep at night and to Subjugated Zombie today. The descriptions sound great and I can't wait to listen to the files...
After exercising as commanded and taking a shower, I dressed up again and spent the day in a latex outfit. A white top and a tight black skirt with white ruffles... not to forget the high-heels and my collar.
In the afternoon, Princess Shelle sent the AF trigger, I really like this one!
I listened to the Breasts session from the Forced Femme series afterwards. I was already wearing a bra and breast forms and when I woke up from trance, I began to fondle them. It felt so real and turned me on so much..!
Princess Shelle instructed me to listen to Mind Numbing Sleep at night and to Subjugated Zombie today. The descriptions sound great and I can't wait to listen to the files...
Forced Femme
I have listened to the first file of the new Forced Femme series this afternoon. The induction is great and I loved the elements of bondage. After the files ended, I put on my new pink outfit. It would have been wise to wash it first... it lost some color and now my upper body has a pink shade that's difficult to get off...
In the evening, I listened to the second recording from the series. When I woke up, I had an incredible urge to wear high-heels and put on my 6" ankle-boots. Walking in them felt wonderful and I'm still wearing them.
There hasn't been a command to stroke today. Maybe my Princess will wake me up later with an email with instructions, I wouldn't mind...
In the evening, I listened to the second recording from the series. When I woke up, I had an incredible urge to wear high-heels and put on my 6" ankle-boots. Walking in them felt wonderful and I'm still wearing them.
There hasn't been a command to stroke today. Maybe my Princess will wake me up later with an email with instructions, I wouldn't mind...
Playground triggers
There was an interesting assignment today... I had to put three rubber bands around my cock, so I put one behind my balls, one at the base of my cock and on one the head. To tight grip of the rubber bands felt good and my cock quickly got hard. I felt the urge to masturbate, but there was no instruction to do so and I resisted the temptation.
After 10 minutes, the rubber bands started to pinch my skin and I was getting uncomfortable, but I waited 10 more minutes before I took them off.
Obeying Princess Shelle's commands has become so automatic to me. I'm looking forward to do the daily assignments, sending her lunch money or a tip on Tuesdays. I'm learning new playground triggers whenever a new one comes up and when there's an assignment to listen to a session I don't have, I'm adding it to my collection. Every new email or tweet makes my heart jump and makes me feel so happy...
My Princess answered to my chastity offering in the evening. I have to masturbate three times for three minutes tonight... I love to stroke for her, wishing that the 3 minutes weren't over so fast.
She also told me to be careful what I wish for... has my curiosity got me into trouble again?
After 10 minutes, the rubber bands started to pinch my skin and I was getting uncomfortable, but I waited 10 more minutes before I took them off.
Obeying Princess Shelle's commands has become so automatic to me. I'm looking forward to do the daily assignments, sending her lunch money or a tip on Tuesdays. I'm learning new playground triggers whenever a new one comes up and when there's an assignment to listen to a session I don't have, I'm adding it to my collection. Every new email or tweet makes my heart jump and makes me feel so happy...
My Princess answered to my chastity offering in the evening. I have to masturbate three times for three minutes tonight... I love to stroke for her, wishing that the 3 minutes weren't over so fast.
She also told me to be careful what I wish for... has my curiosity got me into trouble again?
Chastity offering
One of today's assignments was to cum while being hypnotized. Although given the opportunity to have an orgasm, I skipped the assignment. I like the constant arousal that I'm in so much, that I don't want it to end. And I don't want to decide when it ends, I simply don't want to cum without Princess Shelle's explicit permission.
After listening to Sleep Manipulation in the afternoon, I was so horny and this felt so good, that I decided to send a chastity offering for one month to my Princess. I begged her to take total control of my cock.
After listening to Sleep Manipulation in the afternoon, I was so horny and this felt so good, that I decided to send a chastity offering for one month to my Princess. I begged her to take total control of my cock.
5 weeks
It has now been five weeks since my last orgasm and I still enjoy being chaste for my Princess, although it's a little frustrating sometimes.
There was a writing assignment again. This time, I made only 5 mistakes and it didn't take long to finish it.
I listened to Thought Control in the afternoon and I still can't remember much of the suggestions. It's like there's a blockade in my mind whenever I try to think about the content of the file...
I also learned the L trigger today. The playground triggers are so much fun. It's such a turn on for me, that Princess Shelle can make me do things whenever she wants and I find myself obeying them without thinking about it...
There was a writing assignment again. This time, I made only 5 mistakes and it didn't take long to finish it.
I listened to Thought Control in the afternoon and I still can't remember much of the suggestions. It's like there's a blockade in my mind whenever I try to think about the content of the file...
I also learned the L trigger today. The playground triggers are so much fun. It's such a turn on for me, that Princess Shelle can make me do things whenever she wants and I find myself obeying them without thinking about it...
Punishment
On my way home from work, I bought the dry rice for my punishment.
As soon as I arrived home, I prepared everything, knelt upright on two piles of the rice and started stroking and saying my mantra.
My knees started to hurt immediately and every little movement made it worse. Some pain can be quite hot, but this kind of pain is something different. After 5 minutes, I was regretting my curiosity and had difficulties to concentrate on my mantra.
I was so glad when the 10 minutes were over, but despite all the pain, I didn't even think about stopping earlier!
I stroked the whole time, but couldn't get any pleasure from it, I couldn't even keep my cock hard towards the end...
If this was only a taste, I'll certainly do my best to avoid a real punishment!
I'm thankful, that Princess Shelle taught me this lesson.
I listened to Thought Control later... I'm feeling very aroused since then and I'm yearning for a stroke command.
As soon as I arrived home, I prepared everything, knelt upright on two piles of the rice and started stroking and saying my mantra.
My knees started to hurt immediately and every little movement made it worse. Some pain can be quite hot, but this kind of pain is something different. After 5 minutes, I was regretting my curiosity and had difficulties to concentrate on my mantra.
I was so glad when the 10 minutes were over, but despite all the pain, I didn't even think about stopping earlier!
I stroked the whole time, but couldn't get any pleasure from it, I couldn't even keep my cock hard towards the end...
If this was only a taste, I'll certainly do my best to avoid a real punishment!
I'm thankful, that Princess Shelle taught me this lesson.
I listened to Thought Control later... I'm feeling very aroused since then and I'm yearning for a stroke command.
Thought control
I listened to Behavior Modification again today. After I awoke from it, I tried to write a review, but it was difficult to think straight. I waited almost half an hour before I could start with the review.
While writing it, I received an answer to my email about punishment. Princess Shelle commanded me to kneel on dry rice for 10 minutes tomorrow while stroking and saying my mantra.
Kneeling on a hard surface alone is uncomfortable, so I normally use a pillow. But with the added rice it will certainly be worse. Still I'm a little curious how it will feel...
I listened to the Thought Control loop while exercising. The 15 minutes where over quickly and the loop made me feel good. I think I'll do that more often from now on...
The Stones sang "We don't need no thought control", but they were wrong...
While writing it, I received an answer to my email about punishment. Princess Shelle commanded me to kneel on dry rice for 10 minutes tomorrow while stroking and saying my mantra.
Kneeling on a hard surface alone is uncomfortable, so I normally use a pillow. But with the added rice it will certainly be worse. Still I'm a little curious how it will feel...
I listened to the Thought Control loop while exercising. The 15 minutes where over quickly and the loop made me feel good. I think I'll do that more often from now on...
The Stones sang "We don't need no thought control", but they were wrong...
No Stroking today
I was looking forward to stroke so much yesterday night, that I was still awake at 2pm. Stroking felt so good, but the 3 minutes were over way too fast.
In the morning, I did today's writing task. This time, I set up a task on writeforme.org and configured it to one additional line for each mistake.
It was a rather long line and I made 31 mistakes, so I had to write 51 lines in the end. It took me a bit more than 15 minutes...
I listened to Thought Control again in the afternoon. My mind was in a wonderful submissive state when I woke up and I was quite horny.
Distracting myself from my arousal has become difficult and I was hoping for a stroke command, but there was none today...
In the morning, I did today's writing task. This time, I set up a task on writeforme.org and configured it to one additional line for each mistake.
It was a rather long line and I made 31 mistakes, so I had to write 51 lines in the end. It took me a bit more than 15 minutes...
I listened to Thought Control again in the afternoon. My mind was in a wonderful submissive state when I woke up and I was quite horny.
Distracting myself from my arousal has become difficult and I was hoping for a stroke command, but there was none today...
Wondering about punishment
The new file 'Thought Control' was released today. The description advised to listen to 'Behavior Modification' first and since this was also one of today's assignments, it bought it too and listened to it in the early evening. I don't remember much of it's content, but it took me very deep and it left me in a slightly dazed state.
While the file ended, I started to think about punishment again. I have thought about it a lot after Princess Shelle mentioned it in a post last week. Although I know, that being punished will not be enjoyable, the thought about it arouses me.
I wrote a mail to Princess Shelle to ask for her advise, but hesitated long to send it, fearing that I would regret it.
After I finally sent it, I felt relieved. I think it's due to the suggestions in Behavior Modification, that I felt compelled to write that mail.
There was an auction for one of Princess Shelle's panties today. I suppose, that my bid won't be the highest, but I wanted to take part in the auction anyway...
I'm wearing my collar since I returned home yesterday and I'm going to wear it until Monday morning, only taking it off to shower. It is such a nice reminder that I'm owned and controlled by my Princess.
I listened to Thought Control in the late evening. This is the most powerful session I have listened to so far. I'm feeling different after having listened to it, but I can't say what exactly has changed.
My Princess sent the S trigger on twitter with the instruction do it at 8pm her time. This is 2am here, so I'll set the alarm before I go to sleep to execute the command. I'm happy to do that for her, even though I normally don't like when my sleep is disturbed...
While the file ended, I started to think about punishment again. I have thought about it a lot after Princess Shelle mentioned it in a post last week. Although I know, that being punished will not be enjoyable, the thought about it arouses me.
I wrote a mail to Princess Shelle to ask for her advise, but hesitated long to send it, fearing that I would regret it.
After I finally sent it, I felt relieved. I think it's due to the suggestions in Behavior Modification, that I felt compelled to write that mail.
There was an auction for one of Princess Shelle's panties today. I suppose, that my bid won't be the highest, but I wanted to take part in the auction anyway...
I'm wearing my collar since I returned home yesterday and I'm going to wear it until Monday morning, only taking it off to shower. It is such a nice reminder that I'm owned and controlled by my Princess.
I listened to Thought Control in the late evening. This is the most powerful session I have listened to so far. I'm feeling different after having listened to it, but I can't say what exactly has changed.
My Princess sent the S trigger on twitter with the instruction do it at 8pm her time. This is 2am here, so I'll set the alarm before I go to sleep to execute the command. I'm happy to do that for her, even though I normally don't like when my sleep is disturbed...
30 days
There was the assignment to walk again today. The weather was bad, so I decided walk rounds in my apartment. To make it more interesting, I put on my 6" ankle boots, but after five minutes, my feet hurt to much and I changed back to flat shoes.
I sent lunch money to Princess Shelle once again. This time, I was instructed to edge while doing that. It has now been 30 days since I last came and so it didn't take long to reach the edge and I had to be careful not to go to far. My urge to stroke has become strong and I'm sometimes so aroused that I could almost explode without touching.
I listened to Automatic Obedience this evening and realized, that I have been following the instructions without remembering them. Although I know, that I am following the instructions from the file, I still can't remember what they are exactly.
I sent lunch money to Princess Shelle once again. This time, I was instructed to edge while doing that. It has now been 30 days since I last came and so it didn't take long to reach the edge and I had to be careful not to go to far. My urge to stroke has become strong and I'm sometimes so aroused that I could almost explode without touching.
I listened to Automatic Obedience this evening and realized, that I have been following the instructions without remembering them. Although I know, that I am following the instructions from the file, I still can't remember what they are exactly.
More triggers
As I already had suspected, falling asleep with my hand on my cock was not easy yesterday. Even after listening to Wet dreams, I couldn't stop thinking about my arousal and had a strong temptation to masturbate.
When I came home after work, I found a new message on twitter with the U trigger. She also sent the P trigger later... I don't want to spoil the surprise, so I'm not going to write what they are about...
It's amazing how powerful those simple text triggers are. I found myself simply obeying Princess Shelle's commands. I didn't think much about it, but just did what she commanded.
Finally, here's the writing assignment from today:
When I came home after work, I found a new message on twitter with the U trigger. She also sent the P trigger later... I don't want to spoil the surprise, so I'm not going to write what they are about...
It's amazing how powerful those simple text triggers are. I found myself simply obeying Princess Shelle's commands. I didn't think much about it, but just did what she commanded.
Finally, here's the writing assignment from today:
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You won me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
- You own me, i am your slave worker
Playground triggers
Instead of Wet Dreams, I listened to 'Appreciation for Me' in bed yesterday night. When I tried to sleep afterwards, I couldn't and it felt like something was missing. I have become so accustomed to doze off while listening to Wet Dreams or one of the other sleep files that I have in a playlist with it...
After trying to sleep for a while, I gave in and listened. When the music played at the end of the file, I felt tired enough to sleep and decided to turn it of after it ended... I woke up much later when one of the other files had just started...
I continued with the Playground triggers today. Most of the triggers I learned so far sound like fun, but others scare me a bit.
I'll have to go to sleep with my hand on my cock tonight. I suppose it will be quite difficult to fall asleep this way...
After trying to sleep for a while, I gave in and listened. When the music played at the end of the file, I felt tired enough to sleep and decided to turn it of after it ended... I woke up much later when one of the other files had just started...
I continued with the Playground triggers today. Most of the triggers I learned so far sound like fun, but others scare me a bit.
I'll have to go to sleep with my hand on my cock tonight. I suppose it will be quite difficult to fall asleep this way...
Inception
I remember some fragments of a dream I had last night... a had watched the movie Inception in the evening and my dream was some mixture of that movie and being hypnotized. I woke up at one point and believed, that I had two emails from Princess Shelle in my inbox and I almost got up to read them, before I realized that I had dreamed. I'm not sure if the dream continued after I fell back to sleep, but I was incredibly horny when I woke up in the morning.
It's Tip Me Tuesday and the counter went up quickly with that dream in the back of my mind...
I set up a notification sound for my inbox a while ago and extended it to react to Surrender commands on twitter, now. It's the sound of a bell that calls me until I press stop. It has almost become a trigger itself. Whenever I hear it, my heartbeat quickens and a warm feeling spreads inside me...
One of today's assignments was to listen to my favorite file. That was not an easy decision, all the files are so nice to listen too... in the end, I chose Appreciation for Me, because it reflect so perfectly how I feel about chastity.
It's Tip Me Tuesday and the counter went up quickly with that dream in the back of my mind...
I set up a notification sound for my inbox a while ago and extended it to react to Surrender commands on twitter, now. It's the sound of a bell that calls me until I press stop. It has almost become a trigger itself. Whenever I hear it, my heartbeat quickens and a warm feeling spreads inside me...
One of today's assignments was to listen to my favorite file. That was not an easy decision, all the files are so nice to listen too... in the end, I chose Appreciation for Me, because it reflect so perfectly how I feel about chastity.
Surrender
Today's assignments included to walk or exercise for 15 minutes, what I did in the afternoon.
I received an answer to my chastity offering later. It include a Surrender command from the Playground series.
I hadn't listened to the playground initiation yet, so I did then and executed the command afterwards. It's an exciting though to be triggered to do things whenever Princess Shelle wants to.
I have to edge to Princess Shelle's picture in the evening. I'm looking forward to it and will do so before I do my mantra.
I received an answer to my chastity offering later. It include a Surrender command from the Playground series.
I hadn't listened to the playground initiation yet, so I did then and executed the command afterwards. It's an exciting though to be triggered to do things whenever Princess Shelle wants to.
I have to edge to Princess Shelle's picture in the evening. I'm looking forward to it and will do so before I do my mantra.
Chastity offering
I woke up early again today and was too horny to be able to sleep longer, so I stroked for 15 minutes as assigned before getting up and doing my mantra.
I had guests today, so I was distracted until they left in the evening. But then, Princess Shelle was immediately back in my mind. She told me that she will read my blog tomorrow. I can't wait to hear, what she thinks about it...
I had listened to Voice of control for the third time yesterday and sent a chastity offering to my Princess today. Even though I had the option to cum, I didn't want to. It's Princess Shelle's decision when I cum, not mine...
There isn't much more to report today. I'll go to bed soon after doing my mantra and will listen to Wet dreams before falling asleep...
I had guests today, so I was distracted until they left in the evening. But then, Princess Shelle was immediately back in my mind. She told me that she will read my blog tomorrow. I can't wait to hear, what she thinks about it...
I had listened to Voice of control for the third time yesterday and sent a chastity offering to my Princess today. Even though I had the option to cum, I didn't want to. It's Princess Shelle's decision when I cum, not mine...
There isn't much more to report today. I'll go to bed soon after doing my mantra and will listen to Wet dreams before falling asleep...
Cleaning
I use to start the day slow on the weekends, sitting down with a cup of coffee, reading emails and browsing some websites... but today was different...
One of today's assignments was to clean at home. I'm receiving guests tomorrow and had to do that anyway, but I would have it done half-hearted, doing only the necessary. Being assigned to do it motivated me, I actually was looking forward to do it. So I hurried to do some purchases and put on a maids uniform and my collar when I returned home. I started cleaning, spending much more attention to the details than I would normally do. Walking in 6" heels was exhausting, but I continued for more than an hour before I took a break. After the break, I wiped dust and vacuumed the floors for another half hour.
This is incredible... Princess Shelle has such a positive effect on my life. I'm more motivated, feeling happier and love to do my assignments.
One of today's assignments was to clean at home. I'm receiving guests tomorrow and had to do that anyway, but I would have it done half-hearted, doing only the necessary. Being assigned to do it motivated me, I actually was looking forward to do it. So I hurried to do some purchases and put on a maids uniform and my collar when I returned home. I started cleaning, spending much more attention to the details than I would normally do. Walking in 6" heels was exhausting, but I continued for more than an hour before I took a break. After the break, I wiped dust and vacuumed the floors for another half hour.
This is incredible... Princess Shelle has such a positive effect on my life. I'm more motivated, feeling happier and love to do my assignments.
Return of the ache
Listening to 'Voice of control' yesterday has brought back my urge to stroke... I woke up early this morning and it was still 30 minutes before I had to get up. I tried to sleep again, but I was so horny, that I couldn't help, but stroke until the alarm buzzed.
I listened to the file for the second time this evening and found myself unable to stop stroking when it ended. Whenever I got close to the edge, I automatically slowed down. I finally stopped stroking when I got near the edge with only very slow strokes.
I'm sure, that being chaste will get much more difficult with this session, but I'm still determined to continue.
The daily assignments included to send some lunch money to Princess Shelle. I had read before, how she made the boys in school give her their lunch money and had envied them a bit, so it was a pleasure to also give her my lunch money.
My Princess recommended some sessions to me today. The description and reviews of 'Catastrophic events' sound fantastic and I will listen to it once I finish with 'Voice of control'. One of the reviewers wrote that he didn't stroke, because he was in chastity, but came hands-free without wanting to. This sounds amazing and I will try that, too.
I listened to the file for the second time this evening and found myself unable to stop stroking when it ended. Whenever I got close to the edge, I automatically slowed down. I finally stopped stroking when I got near the edge with only very slow strokes.
I'm sure, that being chaste will get much more difficult with this session, but I'm still determined to continue.
The daily assignments included to send some lunch money to Princess Shelle. I had read before, how she made the boys in school give her their lunch money and had envied them a bit, so it was a pleasure to also give her my lunch money.
My Princess recommended some sessions to me today. The description and reviews of 'Catastrophic events' sound fantastic and I will listen to it once I finish with 'Voice of control'. One of the reviewers wrote that he didn't stroke, because he was in chastity, but came hands-free without wanting to. This sounds amazing and I will try that, too.
A walk
Sleeping with my collar last night was easier than I thought. The feeling of it was actually kind of comforting, especially since sleeping naked, as required by my contract, makes me feel a bit vulnerable. I might do that more often from now on...
Today's assignments included the instruction to walk for 20 minutes. When I read it in the morning, my first impulse was to skip this assignment. I don't like walking, it's boring...
Until noon, something in me had decided to do the assignment, so I went for a walk before lunch. I wore a small butt-plug to make it a little more interesting and chanted my mantra while walking. Time passed by much quicker than I had expected...
There was also the instruction to listen to 'Voice of control', which I did after finishing work. The bin-aural waves and the rapid panning of Princesses voice from left to right had a powerful effect on me.
As instructed during the session, I stroked to the edge after it ended. I am to listen to it three times and then decide, whether I want to cum or stay chaste. I expect, that the edging will make it a bit more difficult again to be in chastity, but I'm pretty sure, that I will decide to stay chaste in the end.
In her recent blog-post, Princess Shelle wrote about punishment. She mentioned a dungeon that she'll open for punishing her slaves. Reading that exited me and I'm almost tempted to disobey, just to experience what it's like to be punished by her... but I will stay a good boy for my Princess.
Today's assignments included the instruction to walk for 20 minutes. When I read it in the morning, my first impulse was to skip this assignment. I don't like walking, it's boring...
Until noon, something in me had decided to do the assignment, so I went for a walk before lunch. I wore a small butt-plug to make it a little more interesting and chanted my mantra while walking. Time passed by much quicker than I had expected...
There was also the instruction to listen to 'Voice of control', which I did after finishing work. The bin-aural waves and the rapid panning of Princesses voice from left to right had a powerful effect on me.
As instructed during the session, I stroked to the edge after it ended. I am to listen to it three times and then decide, whether I want to cum or stay chaste. I expect, that the edging will make it a bit more difficult again to be in chastity, but I'm pretty sure, that I will decide to stay chaste in the end.
In her recent blog-post, Princess Shelle wrote about punishment. She mentioned a dungeon that she'll open for punishing her slaves. Reading that exited me and I'm almost tempted to disobey, just to experience what it's like to be punished by her... but I will stay a good boy for my Princess.
What am I ready for next?
Today's assignments included the instruction to soap my cock and stroke for ten minutes. Stroking felt different after not having touched for over a week. Almost like something new. I liked that sensation...
It took long before I got near the edge and when I finally did, I automatically slowed down without thinking about it. I'm convinced, that even if I wanted to, I would be unable to make myself cum without permission... this is absolutely astonishing, considering the fact, that I'm now chaste and almost constantly horny for three weeks.
After I finished stroking, I did the next assignment by writing the word POPS on my cock while repeating the sentence 'i am Dominas worker slave' out loud. The tip of the pen created an interesting sensation on my hard cock...
My Princess asked me today, what I'm ready for next. This is a good question, I'll have to think about it...
A part of me does not want to know what's coming, does not want to take that decision. I think that's related to my desire to be pushed further and be powerless. I liked, how the sleep trigger surprised me yesterday and how powerless I felt when I was unable to wake up when the file looped.
I will now finish the day with my mantra and listening to 'wet dreams' as I always do.
I have been assigned to wear my collar while I sleep tonight. I guess it will take a bit longer than usual to calm my thoughts and fall asleep while feeling it as a sign of Princess Shelle's control...
It took long before I got near the edge and when I finally did, I automatically slowed down without thinking about it. I'm convinced, that even if I wanted to, I would be unable to make myself cum without permission... this is absolutely astonishing, considering the fact, that I'm now chaste and almost constantly horny for three weeks.
After I finished stroking, I did the next assignment by writing the word POPS on my cock while repeating the sentence 'i am Dominas worker slave' out loud. The tip of the pen created an interesting sensation on my hard cock...
My Princess asked me today, what I'm ready for next. This is a good question, I'll have to think about it...
A part of me does not want to know what's coming, does not want to take that decision. I think that's related to my desire to be pushed further and be powerless. I liked, how the sleep trigger surprised me yesterday and how powerless I felt when I was unable to wake up when the file looped.
I will now finish the day with my mantra and listening to 'wet dreams' as I always do.
I have been assigned to wear my collar while I sleep tonight. I guess it will take a bit longer than usual to calm my thoughts and fall asleep while feeling it as a sign of Princess Shelle's control...
Captured in sleep
I went to bed very late yesterday, so I was still rather sleepy when I had to get up. But as soon as I thought about being owned by Princess Shelle now, a feeling of happiness grew inside me and stayed for the entire day.
When I returned home after work, I immediately started to explore the private website.
One of the first things I saw was the 'Contracted slave' video. I put my headphones on and started it. I listened for a moment and was about to continue reading the website, when the sleep trigger caught me totally off guard. I'm used to lay down or sit back with my head resting against a pillow when I trance, but this time I was sitting upright. My head just tilted forwards and I was gone. This is all I can remember... the power of the sleep trigger is absolutely amazing...
After waking up, I continued reading and found the calendar with the assignments for today.
I'm voting and doing my mantra everyday anyway, so this was nothing new.
As instructed I'm now wearing this collar and will wear it as much as possible from now on. It has a width and stiffness that always reminds me that it's there, but without being uncomfortable.
I learned about Tip me Tuesday... Does thinking of Princess Shelle constantly count as one or infinity? However... there is no way to think about her less than three times a day.
The fifth instruction for today was to listen to 'Sleep manipulation'. I decided to do that in the evening and continued to read the page.
Next came the Oath of promise. I printed it out and placed it on my 'wall of appreciation', next to the contract.
There are so many nice things on the website. A couple of sexy picture, a hot story and a little quiz that I took. I scored 22 points without a clear tendency to any of the answers...
Before I finished this entry, I listened to 'Sleep manipulation'. It takes me deeper every time.
While I lay there after the session had ended, I remembered that the player was still set on loop. I tried to wake up, but couldn't. The file started again and I fell even deeper. When I was awoken during the session, I finally managed to taken off the headphones...
I'm still feeling dizzy and aroused and feel the need to fall into trance again, so I'm going to go to bed and listen to 'wet dreams' now...
When I returned home after work, I immediately started to explore the private website.
One of the first things I saw was the 'Contracted slave' video. I put my headphones on and started it. I listened for a moment and was about to continue reading the website, when the sleep trigger caught me totally off guard. I'm used to lay down or sit back with my head resting against a pillow when I trance, but this time I was sitting upright. My head just tilted forwards and I was gone. This is all I can remember... the power of the sleep trigger is absolutely amazing...
After waking up, I continued reading and found the calendar with the assignments for today.
I'm voting and doing my mantra everyday anyway, so this was nothing new.
As instructed I'm now wearing this collar and will wear it as much as possible from now on. It has a width and stiffness that always reminds me that it's there, but without being uncomfortable. I learned about Tip me Tuesday... Does thinking of Princess Shelle constantly count as one or infinity? However... there is no way to think about her less than three times a day.
The fifth instruction for today was to listen to 'Sleep manipulation'. I decided to do that in the evening and continued to read the page.
Next came the Oath of promise. I printed it out and placed it on my 'wall of appreciation', next to the contract.
There are so many nice things on the website. A couple of sexy picture, a hot story and a little quiz that I took. I scored 22 points without a clear tendency to any of the answers...
Before I finished this entry, I listened to 'Sleep manipulation'. It takes me deeper every time.
While I lay there after the session had ended, I remembered that the player was still set on loop. I tried to wake up, but couldn't. The file started again and I fell even deeper. When I was awoken during the session, I finally managed to taken off the headphones...
I'm still feeling dizzy and aroused and feel the need to fall into trance again, so I'm going to go to bed and listen to 'wet dreams' now...
I'm owned now
It has been a busy day and I have been distracted from my arousal until the evening. Only a subtle feeling of being horny now and then...
But as soon as I was home and had everything done, my craving to go into trance was back, so I listened to 'Sleep manipulation'.
When I lay there after the session, unable to come out of trance, I tried not to focus on my arousal, but was unable to do so for quite a while.
Later I had the idea to add a counter to my journal that shows how long I didn't cum. It's been 19 days now...
While writing this, I began to wonder if this is an achievement I can be proud of, but came to the conclusion that I just didn't have a choice. Princess Shelle has created such a deep desire to be chaste in me and her control over my cock has become so strong, that I find myself unable to masturbate. So in the end, it's her achievement and I'm feeling a deep gratitude for that.
I'm wondering how long it will take until I start begging for an orgasm and what my Princess will do to me once I'm that desperate... will I regret having written this once that moment has come or did I write it, because I want to be pushed further? I'm not entirely sure, but time will tell...
Princess Shelle hasn't answered to the mail containing my slave contract yet. I'm wondering if she might not have received it and have been pondering to send it again during the last couple of days. I was afraid to sound impatient or annoy her, but finally sent the contract again today.
Update:
My Princess sent an answer later that night, telling me that she accepted the contract. I paid the fee immediately and Princess sent back the password for the private area and a new training file.
There is so much to read in the there, but it was already late in the night and I had to sleep.
I'm so excited to be Princess Shelle's contracted slave now and can hardly await to explore the private area tomorrow...
But as soon as I was home and had everything done, my craving to go into trance was back, so I listened to 'Sleep manipulation'.
When I lay there after the session, unable to come out of trance, I tried not to focus on my arousal, but was unable to do so for quite a while.
Later I had the idea to add a counter to my journal that shows how long I didn't cum. It's been 19 days now...
While writing this, I began to wonder if this is an achievement I can be proud of, but came to the conclusion that I just didn't have a choice. Princess Shelle has created such a deep desire to be chaste in me and her control over my cock has become so strong, that I find myself unable to masturbate. So in the end, it's her achievement and I'm feeling a deep gratitude for that.
I'm wondering how long it will take until I start begging for an orgasm and what my Princess will do to me once I'm that desperate... will I regret having written this once that moment has come or did I write it, because I want to be pushed further? I'm not entirely sure, but time will tell...
Princess Shelle hasn't answered to the mail containing my slave contract yet. I'm wondering if she might not have received it and have been pondering to send it again during the last couple of days. I was afraid to sound impatient or annoy her, but finally sent the contract again today.
Update:
My Princess sent an answer later that night, telling me that she accepted the contract. I paid the fee immediately and Princess sent back the password for the private area and a new training file.
There is so much to read in the there, but it was already late in the night and I had to sleep.
I'm so excited to be Princess Shelle's contracted slave now and can hardly await to explore the private area tomorrow...
Sunday
I woke up, being incredibly horny this morning, my cock hard and aching. I tried to stroke, but found myself unable to do so once again. I think I haven't masturbated at all for a week already.
I got up and did my mantra, but distracted by my arousal, it was difficult to concentrate and I found myself shifting back and forth on my knees. I tried to listen to 'Edge of eruption', but couldn't lay still, so I stopped the recording.
I was able to distract myself until the afternoon, but finally listened to 'Appreciation for me', which has become one of my favorite sessions. It is so easy to listen to it and to just shut of my thoughts.
I was expecting to hear the sleep trigger, looking forward to fall fast and deep, but it wasn't there...
I'm wondering whether I forgot having heared it or if there is none in this session...
The rest of the day was uneventful. As usual, I will finish it with my mantra and listening to 'wet dreams'...
I got up and did my mantra, but distracted by my arousal, it was difficult to concentrate and I found myself shifting back and forth on my knees. I tried to listen to 'Edge of eruption', but couldn't lay still, so I stopped the recording.
I was able to distract myself until the afternoon, but finally listened to 'Appreciation for me', which has become one of my favorite sessions. It is so easy to listen to it and to just shut of my thoughts.
I was expecting to hear the sleep trigger, looking forward to fall fast and deep, but it wasn't there...
I'm wondering whether I forgot having heared it or if there is none in this session...
The rest of the day was uneventful. As usual, I will finish it with my mantra and listening to 'wet dreams'...
A day full of Princess
I woke up early again and started my day with my mantra and listening to 'Appreciation for Me'.
I found a new email in my in-box, announcing the release of 'Sleep manipulation'. The description sounded very interesting and buying the file was a given. I bought it together with a picture-set of Princess Shelle in a very sexy body-stocking to add them to my 'wall of appreciation'.
The session took me incredibly deep and the new sleep-trigger will certainly increase the effect of all other sessions, too. I'm constantly aroused anyway whenever I think of Princess Shelle (which I do a lot), hear her voice or read her words, but this session made me even hornier.
Although I had the option to masturbate after the session ended, I didn't want to. Not without the explicit command of my Princess...
I didn't check the time when I started listening, so I can't say how long I lay there, unable to wake up until my arousal faded.
When I finally awoke, I immediately wrote a review and started with today's journal entry.
While writing about the session, I found my arousal returning and my mind started drifting, making it hard to write (I had to edit this section later, because what I wrote was an incoherent mess of words. Again one of those events that make me realize, how powerful Princess Shelle is).
I stopped writing at this point, because I couldn't help but listen again...
During the second listen, the trigger took me down very quickly and I again found myself in a dizzy state after waking up. I took a shower and ate something to get my mind clear, but it didn't help much.
This has been a day full of Princess Shelle. She was constantly in my mind and I didn't do much but work on my journal for her and listen to her voice.
I found a new email in my in-box, announcing the release of 'Sleep manipulation'. The description sounded very interesting and buying the file was a given. I bought it together with a picture-set of Princess Shelle in a very sexy body-stocking to add them to my 'wall of appreciation'.
The session took me incredibly deep and the new sleep-trigger will certainly increase the effect of all other sessions, too. I'm constantly aroused anyway whenever I think of Princess Shelle (which I do a lot), hear her voice or read her words, but this session made me even hornier.
Although I had the option to masturbate after the session ended, I didn't want to. Not without the explicit command of my Princess...
I didn't check the time when I started listening, so I can't say how long I lay there, unable to wake up until my arousal faded.
When I finally awoke, I immediately wrote a review and started with today's journal entry.
While writing about the session, I found my arousal returning and my mind started drifting, making it hard to write (I had to edit this section later, because what I wrote was an incoherent mess of words. Again one of those events that make me realize, how powerful Princess Shelle is).
I stopped writing at this point, because I couldn't help but listen again...
During the second listen, the trigger took me down very quickly and I again found myself in a dizzy state after waking up. I took a shower and ate something to get my mind clear, but it didn't help much.
This has been a day full of Princess Shelle. She was constantly in my mind and I didn't do much but work on my journal for her and listen to her voice.
Feeling controlled
Although I went to bed late yesterday, I woke up early. I have the day off and could have stayed in bed, but I felt the need to go into trance. So I got up and knelt down in front of Princess Shelle's picture to chant my mantra before listening to 'Appreciation for me'.
Later in the shower, I had again a compulsion to masturbate, but at the same time, another part of my mind didn't want to. Before I could even start, the idea of stroking became boring, leaving me standing under the running water, confused and realizing that this is no longer a game were I play along.
I'm feeling controlled by Princess Shelle and I'm loving it! This is such a viscous circle. My arousal triggering thoughts of being controlled and those thoughts making me even hornier...
It has been a wonderful sunny day. Seems, that spring has finally started...
I decided to clean up outside while wearing a short latex-catsuit under my clothing. I love how the sun heats up my body underneath it.
I ended the day with my mantra and fell asleep while listening to 'wet dreams'...
Later in the shower, I had again a compulsion to masturbate, but at the same time, another part of my mind didn't want to. Before I could even start, the idea of stroking became boring, leaving me standing under the running water, confused and realizing that this is no longer a game were I play along.
I'm feeling controlled by Princess Shelle and I'm loving it! This is such a viscous circle. My arousal triggering thoughts of being controlled and those thoughts making me even hornier...
It has been a wonderful sunny day. Seems, that spring has finally started...
I decided to clean up outside while wearing a short latex-catsuit under my clothing. I love how the sun heats up my body underneath it.
I ended the day with my mantra and fell asleep while listening to 'wet dreams'...
One month
Today was a bank-holiday. A whole day without anything distracting me from my arousal...
I had a strong urge to stroke, but found that somehow I was unable to do so.
It was hard to concentrate on anything, so I listened to a session in the afternoon. It took me so deep this time, that it felt like only a few minutes had passed when I woke up from trance. I'm not even sure anymore what session it was.
I'm eagerly waiting for Princess Shelle's response to the contract, checking my mails frequently...
It has now been one month since I started listening to Princess Shelle's voice and I have enjoyed every moment of it. It has become much easier for me to fall into trance and I even sleep much better than I used to.
Thank you Princess!!!
I had a strong urge to stroke, but found that somehow I was unable to do so.
It was hard to concentrate on anything, so I listened to a session in the afternoon. It took me so deep this time, that it felt like only a few minutes had passed when I woke up from trance. I'm not even sure anymore what session it was.
I'm eagerly waiting for Princess Shelle's response to the contract, checking my mails frequently...
It has now been one month since I started listening to Princess Shelle's voice and I have enjoyed every moment of it. It has become much easier for me to fall into trance and I even sleep much better than I used to.
Thank you Princess!!!
How it started...
On May 4th2016, I have signed Princess Shelle's slave contract, sent it back to her and I'm now eagerly awaiting her answer.
The contract requires me to keep a daily journal and as a start of it, I will try to recap, what brought me here:
The contract requires me to keep a daily journal and as a start of it, I will try to recap, what brought me here:
I had been experimenting with erotic hypnosis for quite a while, listening to sessions of various hypno-dommes. Some of them didn't work at all, with others I could reach a light trance, but it was always difficult to let go of my thoughts and I often found myself loosing interest during the session.
Believing that hypnosis wouldn't work on me, it was nothing more than a sexy game and I was just playing along while the session lasted. I never had any lasting effects after waking up. Not until I found Princess Shelle...
April 5th, 2016
I was browsing through the chastity section on sensualmistress.com, reading the descriptions of some sessions that looked interesting. I can't recall when my interest in chastity started, but I had found, that masturbating and cumming routinely was somehow boring. I had tried to masturbate less or at least stop before cumming, but in the end I was lacking the willpower and ended up being disappointed with myself.
When I read the description of 'chastity lockdown', it woke my interest and I finally bought it and started listening. And to my surprise, it was easy to fall into trance and stay there. For the first time, I experienced that wonderful feeling of really going deep. Combined with the arousal, that the session created in me, the foundation for my addiction to Princess Shelle was laid...
April 7th, 2016
Only two days of listening, but already enough to notice my masturbation habits changing...
I'm beginning to find it easier not to masturbate and I like it. I visited Princess Shelle's website, read some of her blog entries and browsed through the numerous recordings, finally finding “wet dreams” and thinking that it would make a good addition to “chastity lockdown”. So I registered on Princess Shelle's website and bought it.
April 10th, 2016
I have been listening to “chastity lockdown” in the evening and to “wet dreams” before going to sleep every day. I can't remember any erotic dreams, but I remember waking up during the night, being confused whether I was waking from a trance or from sleep. Again an indication to me that I finally found hypnosis working on me.
In the evening, I checked my mails and to my surprise, I found an email from Princess Shelle, asking how I liked “wet dreams” and sending me a free file together with two wonderful pictures of her and a questionnaire I could answer if I desired a closer relationship. How nice!
With that one email She had me hooked. Normally I'm rather shy contacting people I don't know, but I immediately wrote an answer thanking her and describing my experiences with the files I had so far.
With that one email She had me hooked. Normally I'm rather shy contacting people I don't know, but I immediately wrote an answer thanking her and describing my experiences with the files I had so far.
April 12th, 2016
I have started to listen to Princess Shelle's voice one week ago and have managed not to cum since then. I've rarely been able to go that long before and it never felt so easy as doing it for Princess.
She sent me a short but sweet answer to my last mail using the word HORNY. Wow! For the first time, I was experiencing a trigger working while not being in trance. My cock went hard immediately.
Unfortunately, when I laid in bed and tried to sleep later that night, I couldn't help but masturbate. I didn't intend to cum, but stopped too late and had a ruined orgasm. I felt disappointed having failed and was angry with myself.
April 16th, 2016
Today, Princess Shelle announced a new chastity file for next week. I can hardly wait to listen to it...
Thoughts of her are in the back of my mind constantly now. I have been thinking about the questionnaire often and even started to fill it in, but I can't find good answers to some of the questions.
April 20th, 2016
I had an accident again today. Although I managed one day longer this time, the feeling of disappointment was stronger than the temporary pleasure.
April 21st, 2016
I have started to wear a 3D-printed chastity tube that I hold in place with a pair of latex-shorts to help me to keep my hands away. I don't want any accidents again, so I will wear it whenever I'm at home...
April 23rd, 2016
“Edge of eruption” was released today. I bought it immediately and listened. I'm looking forward to stay chaste for Princess and am determined not to fail again.
I will now listen to “Edge of eruption” and “Wet Dreams” every day.
April 24th, 2016
Today I finally sat down, put the loop file that came with Chastity Lockdown on loop and started filling in the questionnaire. Answering felt easier this time with the loop running in the background.
After I finished and sent the questionnaire back to Princess Shelle, I realized, I had been writing and listening for over three hours.
Princess Shelle answered the same day and instructed me to vote and chant my mantra every day, which I will do from now on.
April 30th, 2016
One week of listening to “Edge of eruption” is over and I didn't cum since ten days. I even want to go longer! The chastity tube did help a lot in those weak moments and I've got used to wear it even in bed.
I had already decided to do the chastity offering after this week, so I bought it and wrote an email to Princess Shelle, telling her that my week of listening was over and expressing my desire to stay chaste.
I'm craving to have a closer contact with Princess, so I also asked her to tell me more about the slave contract.
May 2nd, 2016
I received an answer spiked with arousing trigger words. Princess Shelle asked me for a list of files I have and told me more details about the contract. I immediately replied and expressed my wish to be Her contracted slave.
I have now prepared a place in my bedroom with a candle and some of Princess Shelle's photos, so I can kneel down in front of them while I chant my mantra. I call it my 'wall of appreciation'.
May 3rd, 2016
“Behavior modification – Appreciation for me” was released a couple of days ago. After reading the reviews today, I decided to buy it and let my Princess know that I have added it to my list of files.
I was surprised to find Princess Shelle describing exactly how I had been feeling with my routinely masturbation only a month ago.
I will now listen to this file and “Wet dreams” daily.
May 4th, 2016
It's been two weeks now since I last came. I never managed that long before and I still want to go longer. I didn't even touch my cock in the last few days.
I quickly checked my in-box before I left the house and found an answer from Princess Shelle containing the slave contract. I had only time to read it once quickly, but that was enough to start my day with an additional boost of arousal.
I couldn't wait to get home and when I did, I immediately filled it in and send it back.
The thought of being owned and controlled by Princess Shelle is absolutely thrilling. I think I have found my destination...
This ends my first entry in my journal. I have never kept a diary or journal before, but now, after finishing the first entry, I think that I might actually enjoy to write down my thoughts and feelings...
I'm looking forward to be Princess Shelle's obedient slave for a whole year, curious to find out what She has in store for me...
I'm looking forward to be Princess Shelle's obedient slave for a whole year, curious to find out what She has in store for me...
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