Locktober 2021 Journal

 Finally, it's Locktober! I have been looking forward to it since Domina Shelle dropped some hints several weeks ago.

As a preparation for the chastity part, Domina Shelle created a session that forced me to start Locktober completely drained... giggles... Cumming so often and back-to-back was exhausting and left me craving to be locked in chastity.

Domina has instructed me to keep a journal for Locktober, so i will add a daily recap of my experiences and feelings below.

Day 1:

Locktober is starting with a week o strict chastity - no touching allowed at all - which wasn't too difficult after two days of being drained.

Eager to start, i sat back and listened to 'The Keyholder', the session for the first week of this month as soon as i could in the evening. I need to listen more often to be able to describe the session properly, but i woke up in a very relaxed state and the impression that Domina is very serious about this year's Locktober and She is having plans that exceed this month...

To my surprise, i didn't feel horny after listening. That part came later when i was watching TV. I was watching a show, nothing erotic at all, when my cock suddenly began to twitch and Domina Shelle was right there in the center of my mind. I fought the urge to touch for some minutes before i managed to concentrate on the TV again.

Day 2:

I woke up horny, with faint memories of dreaming about being dressed in sexy lingerie... i don't remember more details unfortunately. But an erotic dream in the first night already, this is promising to become a very hot month...

The rest of the day was less interesting, i was busy enough to be able to distract myself. Then in the evening, after listening to the 'Keyholder' session, i experienced the same random attacks of arousal like yesterday. From one moment to the other, my mind was centered around Domina Shelle and my cock began to twitch. Especially when i went to bed and tried to sleep... my mind began to form sexy fantasies, causing my cock to get rock hard.

I needed to sleep, so i tried to shake of those fantasies, but soon enough, a new scene would play in my mind. It took me more than an hour before i had success...

Day 3:

Only the 3rd day and i can already notice, how chastity is helping me to focus on my Owner, Domina Shelle. The urge to stroke is growing, but i manage to keep myself distracted with work and my maid chores.

I was grocery shopping during my lunch-break and there was a booth selling candied almonds in from of the store. I love candied almonds so much, they bring back sweet childhood memories, but stroking isn't the only thing that Domina is denying me, She has also forbidden any snacks between meals. So i had to pass on the almonds... very sad, but the feeling of obedience made up for it!

Day 4:

It's getting more difficult to stay focused on normal life. The 'arousal attacks' were more frequent today, but interestingly, i had no urge to touch.

When i woke up from listening to the session for this week, i found an email from Domina Shelle. With a few sentences, She managed to trigger fantasies of Her taking a shower and me trying to peek through the door... Her little assignment to reply with one of my own fantasies left me with wet panties...

Day 5:

Time seemed to crawl today. All i could think about was to finish work and listen to the Lockdown session. I had a strong desire to somehow react to my arousal. Not by stroking, that thought seems to be locked away by Domina, but i would have loved to wear a butt-plug, to feel filled and my prostate being stimulated, but this week is about complete denial and any kind of play is forbidden.

Day 6:

A little writing assignment kept me busy for a while. i like writing assignments, it feels like a kind of meditation, like when i say my mantra, but in an even more focused way.

It sounds strange, but i noticed that i miss wearing a butt-plug even more than stroking. Luckily, Domina Shelle was so kind to allow me to use one tomorrow when i told Her...

Day 7:

I used Domina's permission and wore a butt-plug most of the afternoon. I enjoyed the teasing feeling of it filling me and pressing against my prostate.

I was also allowed some stroking, but no edging. I allowed myself only a little bit of stroking while being plugged, because i was afraid that i might fail and go too far. Only later in bed, i stroked a little longer. I finally had to stop, because i got too close to edging and in that moment, i lost interest in stroking, turned around and fell asleep. Very interesting, i don't remember any suggestion like this...

The first week of Locktober is over now and i'm loving it. I'll write about the second week in a new post...