Remote controlled

It has been a bit since the last update, so here's a quick wrap-up...
The hands-free training is showing first effects. I'm dreaming more than usual. At first, the dreams were not of a sexual nature, but i remember one dream on Friday night, were i was trying on different chastity-belts and the night after, i dreamed of cross-dressing. I don't know in which context this was, but i take it as a good sign and hope to have more dreams of that kind.

Yesterday i found a small package from Domina Shelle in my mailbox. Her panties had arrived! There was a little card included that contained the instructions to slip into my maid-uniform and kneel while i sniff them. Her scent, mixed with Her perfume instantly made me horny and i had a hard time resisting to touch myself. I'm looking forward to our next call, where She'll use my magnetic cuffs to tie me up remotely and tease me while i'll have Her panties on my face.

Speaking of the remote controlled toys... i have started to put everything into a nice case with a proper webpage to control them and i'm adding more options. I'm documenting it on a seperate page.
Lady Helena is already keen to have me under Her control. She said, i'm in much trouble in our next session. I love the kind of trouble She means...!

Hypnotic Brainwashing

On Saturday, Domina Shelle released Her newest file Dominance - A Hypnotic Brainwashing. I have listened a couple of times, but i'm still not capable to grasp, what it does to me. I remember going deeper and deeper and deeper and i know, that there are training suggestions in it, but i can't describe the effect. I have noticed, that i have been looking at Her pictures more often while thinking about the pleasure of being Her slave and i think my submissiveness has deepened. Whatever it is, i'm sure the file has the intended effect on my and i'm comfortable with submitting fully to what my Owner is doing, even if i don't understand.
Domina also sent an assignment to Her slaves... Edging as often as possible for one hour and then on the next day, cumming as often as possible during another hour. Since i'm in chastity for as long as i possibly can, i was a little disappointed, that i couldn't follow it. The forced draining would certainly have been interesting, but i don't regret making that chastity commitment.

I have used the Sunday afternoon to practice with the Hand Free Training and had the files running in the background while i was doing other things. I still haven't had a wet dream, but i remember having dreamed a lot during the last two nights.

Today was the first time since a while that chastity has been hard again. Especially in the evening, i was very horny and would have loved to stroke a bit, but in such moments, the feeling of being in my Owner's control is extra-strong and i love this! I think, doing the hands-free training in combination with being locked in mental chastity will be an intense experience...

New chastity commitment

Domina Shelle had teased me for a couple of days about being locked up in mental chastity again. In my first replies, i wrote that i like being locked up and that i couldn't wait, but She kept teasing me. This went on until i started to beg for it and She seemed to have waited for that, because this evening, i received Her reply in which She told me that i'll have to beg to be unlocked and that She knows, that i'll wait as long as i can.
She didn't phrase that last part as a command, but it feels like one and at the same time, i take it as a challenge. I committed myself to stay locked up for the rest of the year and i'll probably make a new commitment then...
I reinforced my chastity by listening to Brain Fried at bed-time. I'm not sure whether i fell asleep or if i only went very very deep, but i remember only the first and last minutes of the file...
I also asked Domina Shelle for permission to start with the Hands Free series again. Cumming hands-free on command sounds intriguing and i already had tried the series a year ago, but that time i got stuck, because i had no success with having a wet dream which would be required to proceed to the last part. I think, this might have been because i was following Domina's stroking instructions and hope to have more success while being locked up...

Puppy training

I gave Domina Shelle the chance to also extract a gift code from me, because i thought i shouldn't spoil Lady Helena without spoiling Her, too. I didn't expect, how easy it would be for Her...
She had allowed me to beg for a pair of Her panties where She had cum in and i also begged Her to be allowed to sign with 'maid marta' again (She had me sign with my puppy-name since a while and i was missing being maid marta...). So She just told me, that if i want that, i have to show Her, how much i love Her and give Her the code. I hadn't accepted that, but there's nothing to argue about Her approach, She's always right... so i didn't hesitate to give Her the code.

Yesterday morning, i had an email from Her and She thanked me and sent me Her new file Tranceformation - Sissy Puppy for free and also the new session for Her contracted slaves.
The later one is called 'Trigger Hand wash' and i listened to it in the afternoon. In this session, Domina Shelle conditions me to associate washing my hands with pleasing Her. There were amnesia triggers involved, so i can't remember more details and when i woke up, i didn't notice any changes.

This morning, i found another email from my Owner. She used my commitment to be Her volunteer to ask me to pay for Her nail appointment. I'm not into findom, but i love to do that for Her once in a while and She never abuses this.
After lunch, i started to clean my flat. I wasn't very motivated at first, but as soon as my hands got wet, i suddenly was very motivated. This is probably due to the trigger. I spent more then two hours with cleaning and then took photos for my cleaning-report.

Afterwards, i finally listened to the puppy-training file. Its only 15 minutes long, so i was surprised by how powerful it is. I soon found myself barking and behaving like a puppy. I was not playing along, i really felt like Her puppy! Then She told me, that using furniture feels wrong for a dog and She told me to sit on the floor. I obeyed Her instructions and sat like a dog, with my paws up and tongue hanging out. I was panting and eagerly waiting for Her next command.
She had me play dead next and then laying on my back before She began to wake me up while giving me post-hypnotic suggestions and making me horny.
I couldn't wait to be woken, because She had told me to hump a pillow afterwards. The moment the file ended, i wiped the headphones off with my paw, used my teeth to get a pillow into position and then began to hump it. I was panting again and slightly drooling with my tongue hanging out.
I still need explicit permission from my Owner to cum and so i couldn't make a mess like She had allowed in the file. I just humped until i lost interest.

In the past, files where i was told to do something afterwards didn't work as good as the ones that contain mental conditioning, but this one was different. I love it! I have asked Domina for a call where we do some puppy-play and i'm already looking forward to it!

Don't challenge Lady Helena

Before i start with today's events, let me quickly tell what happened yesterday... when i returned home, there was a new email from my Owner in my inbox. I wasn't waiting for any reply, so i was very curious. When i read the email, i was in for a surprise. Domina Shelle replied to an email that She had me write while waking up from trance a few days earlier. I had completely forgotten about that! I remembered again writing "my mind belongs to You, Domina", but i still don't remember any suggestions that let me forget about it...

Today was the big day where Lady Helena would torture a code for a gift-card out of me. I was exited about this since we had made the appointment a week ago, but after i had set up everything and was waiting for Her, i got more nervous with every minute. Then i saw Her go online and there was no way back for me. She told me to kneel on a hard surface with clamps on my balls and mantra until She called. That nothing unusual as a start of a session, so i calmed down a bit.

I think i was already kneeling for 10 minutes when She finally called and She informed me right away, that She would get the code before She would even let me lay down. At that point i was still determined to stay strong and not give up too easy, but Lady Helena gave me no chance at all. She knew exactly, that i was expecting a slow torture while being tied to my bed, but She didn't grant me that comfort.
She had me apply nipple-clamps, those nasty ones that She had used last week and that i fear. I don't know why, but i put them on the very tip off my nipples... Then She told me to remove the clamps on my balls and while She was counting to 10, i had to slap my balls with every number. It hurt, but i was still able to resist and when Lady Helena asked me, i refused to give Her the code.
"OK, I have all day... and we'll increase the count every time..." was Her answer. And with that, She started to count to 20. I had already noticed last week, that i deliver harder slaps than i would do on my own, when Lady Helena instructs me and so, i was moaning with every hit. I could tell by Her giggling, that She was enjoying my suffering immensely and before the set was over, i had given up any hopes to be able to win. But there was still a little resistance inside me and so i kept refusing to give Her to code.
The next set was 30. Well, not really 30... After 29, Lady Helena started over at 21. She kept repeating numbers, jumped back and i quickly lost count... by the time the set was done, my knees hurt badly and i tried my luck by offering Her the first number of the code for a little rest for my knees, but She refused. She had found a weak spot and was using that against me.

We were about half through the next set, 40 strokes, when i suddenly heared Lady Helena talk to someone. "I'm torturing Your little maid marta right now...". She was talking to my beloved Owner!
When She put Domina Shelle on speaker and i could hear Her greeting me, all the pain was forgotten for a moment, but only until i heared Lady Helena ask Domina Shelle to say 21. I knew what to do when i heared the number and i hit extra hard for my Owner.
Lady Helena turned off the speaker and they talked for a few moments, letting me suffer in my uncomfortable position, then the counting went on. I lost track, how many times Lady Helena skipped back to 31, but every time She did, a moan of desperation escaped my mouth. I was only waiting for this set to be over. I was broken and when Lady Helena asked, i gave up and told Her the code.

She finally allowed to to give my knees a rest and once i was sitting, the pain from the clamps returned to my focus. I begged to take them off and Lady Helena granted my wish. I had them on for about 20 minutes and taking them off was the worst pain i ever felt on my nipples!
I had learned my lesson: "Don't challenge Lady Helena"

Lady Helena finished the call by letting me tie myself down, with my feet spread and my hands above my head. She activated the electromagnet, fixating my hands to the headboard and began hypnotizing me. I had made sure, that i was unable to reach the cable, so my only way out was to either wait for Her releasing me or cutting my wrist-cuffs, something i would avoid at all costs.
After taking me into trance and paralyzing me, She pinned my head and waist down with additional hypnotic restraints and let me drift off into sleep as She ended the call and released my hands.
I fantasized for a while about Her teasing me, like She had instructed, but soon, my nipples woke me up. They still hurt like they were clamped and i can still feel a slight pain 90 minutes later. Last week, they were still a little sore after three days, how long will it be this time?

Despite all the suffering, this was an amazing session (or was it because of the suffering?). Lady Helena has pushed my limits again and surprised me with Her wicked ways. She was playful the whole time, but never left a doubt that She's in charge and not to be messed with! I'm already looking forward to next time!

A mean trigger

It's always a great start into the day to wake up and find a new email from one of my superiors and today, i had one from Lady Helena. After our session on Tuesday, i had told there, that having clothespins on my tongue is another thing that i can stand very long, hoping that She'll push my limits a bit again like She did with the tweezer clamps.
She understood my indirect begging and i think She's as keen to expand my pain threshold as i am.
I think, i have impressed Her a bit with my suffering, because She not only allowed me to participate in Her boot-camp, but She wrote that i have to. I'm so happy that She'll let me take part, although Her wording sounded like She is not going to go easy on me...
I thanked Her immediately and also suggested a little game that will bring me to my limits on Tuesday. I'm going to put a gift-card on a web-page, protect it with a code and if She can make me tell Her the code, the gift-card is Her's.
She loves the idea and left no doubt, that i will tell Her. I know, that i have no chance and that She won't show mercy, but i will try to resist as long as possible.

There are also new sessions to listen to. Domina has released SissyGasm and a session for Her contracted slaves. I haven't listened to them yet, but from the description, i get that SissyGasm will increase the arousal i feel from stimulating my nipples. This might come handy on Tuesday...

Lady Helena has also released a new file and this is the reason why i haven't listened to the other sessions afterwards like i had planned. In Masturbator, She installed a new trigger that, like the name of the session suggests, causes me to masturbate regardless where and in what situation i am. That alone would have been great, but the trigger also makes me unable to stop until i cum.
This put me in quite a predicament after She woke me up and triggered me, since Domina Shelle forbid me to cum before Christmas and only with Her explicit permission. Her commands override Lady Helena's instructions and so i found myself stroking and stroking, but being unable to cum.
The temptation was high to just cum, confess and accept the punishment, but my body obeyed perfectly and let me slow down in the right moments without me having conscious control over it.
It took more than two hours before i was able to stop. I knew, that i needed to do something to prevent me from starting again and so i put on three pairs of tight latex shorts, a catsuit and over that another catsuit made from thick rubber. I cuddled up under a latex sheet and spent the rest of the evening in state between trance and being awake, my mind full of kinky thoughts...

Hard nipple torture

Like last year, Domina Shelle released a special recording for Halloween this Saturday. It's called Princess Vampire and like the name suggests, it's a very erotic story about a Princess who seduces men at night and makes them Her blood slaves.
But there's more to this file... Domina wrote, that there's a secret message hidden inside. I listened on Sunday, but didn't find any message, i didn't even feel like i had been very deep in trance.
Today i noticed, that i have been thinking about ways how to please my Owner almost permanently. I have spent already two afternoons writing an erotic story for Her. I already wrote one part for the Farm Assignment and Domina told me that She got wet while reading it. She even allowed me to beg for a pair of Her panties, one She has cum in, while we were talking on Saturday, so i want to send Her a continuation of the story when i beg Her.

This evening, i had an amazing call with Lady Helena. I had mounted an electromagnet to the headboard of my head and fixed a set of cuffs to a metal-plate. Lady Helena could turn it on and off remotely and with my feet cuffed to the foot of my bed, i would be totally helpless for Her.
Before we started our call, She instructed me to cuff my feet and put clamps on my nipples and another on the skin between my balls.
After talking a bit, She had me cuff my hands, too and then She activated the magnet, rendering me totally helpless. She started to hypnotize me and guided me to Her chamber that i already knew from Her recordings. But then, the sound suddenly stopped. I remained still at first, but when the sound didn't come back, i opened my eyes and saw Her offline. I panicked a bit, although i was sure, that i'd be able to break free at the costs of damaging my headboard. I began to search for another way out and quickly found, that i could reach the cable. Shortly after ripping it out and releasing myself, Lady Helena was back online and calling again. We had to improvise now without the magnet working and to be honest, this was even better than what we had planned.

I had told Lady Helena about a pair of very nasty nipple-clamps i have. I only tried them twice and their bite is so nasty that i couldn't stand it for more than a few seconds. They scare me, but knowing that She might use them made me as excited as it made me nervous.
She told me to put them on and that i'd need to beg Her if i wanted them off. I was frightened, but obeyed. The pain set in immediately and it didn't take long until i started to beg. But Lady Helena let me suffer, telling me that i wasn't really begging yet and when She said "you like that, don't you?" i had to agree.
Two minutes later, i was seriously begging, but still, hearing Lady Helena laugh turned me on. My memories are a bit blurry from this point on, but i know, that She said, that it's already been 5 minutes. I'm not sure if She released me after saying that or a bit later, but when She finally did, i was relieved, although taking the clamps of hurt even more than wearing them.
She didn't give me much of a break and when She told me to put them on again, my heart sank a bit. I think, i put them a little more on the tip of my nipples, because this time, they hurt even more. Lady Helena allowed me to stroke this time while saying my mantra and this helped a bit, but i was soon begging again. Maybe She didn't keep me begging as long as before, maybe it felt shorter because i had a little distraction, but taking the clamps of sent an even stronger wave of pain through my nipples. I was not sure if i wanted another round, but did i have a choice?
Again, Lady Helena gave me only a short break before the clamps went back on. This time, She used the playground trigger that makes me bark and every time i did, the movement of my chest caused the clamps to bite into my nipples. Being in puppy-mode meant that i couldn't beg and so i tried to communicate and beg by barking. Lady Helena counted down 3 minutes and having a target helped me a lot, although it felt like the clamps had pierced my skin (turned out they hadn't).
After this round, Lady Helena told me to get 3 ice-cubes. Two of them went into my ass and with the 3rd, i was allowed to ease the pain in my nipples a bit. It helped a lot, but i was scared, that the clamps might also hurt a lot more afterwards. Luckily, Lady Helena released me and we agreed to try out original session next Tuesday.

After we ended our call, i was feeling euphoric. Being pushed further than i've gone before had released so much adrenaline, that it took me a while until i was able to think straight again. I wrote Lady Helena an email, because i hadn't been able to express my gratitude for this experience properly while i was still in that state of euphoric bliss. I also told Her about another way of torture that i can't stand for long... maybe she'll use that information, i would certainly be happy to suffer for Her again.