Day 15:
Week 3 has started and i could barely wait to listen to the new session. This time, Domina Shelle played with dissociating my body from my mind. She has done this in previous sessions, but now, She is using it to ensure chastity and keep me horny and frustrated.
This week's file will condition me to feel more dissociated, the more i approach the edge and moving my hand will become harder. From listening only once, this is already working well and i'm getting an idea of how frustrating this week might become. But, like Domina Shelle said, this is all to protect me from failing, it's for my own good...
Day 16:
OMG, it's only the second day with
LOCTOBER 2021 Week-3 - Extreme Dissociation and it's getting intense already. I was looking forward to listen to it and get a chance to stroke a bit for the whole day, but when the time had finally come, Domina's suggestions and instructions only served to leave me even hornier. Being unable to continue to stroke when it's feeling best is so frustrating, but it's like Domina Shelle said... She's protecting me from failing and i know i would have failed already without Her help...
Day 17:
I was having an inner fight the whole day. One part of me wanted to cum so badly, but the other one wanted to stay chaste and enjoy the feeling of permanent arousal.
The dissociation from my own body that Domina's suggestions are creating whenever i stroke does not only add to the frustration i'm feeling, but it also confuses my mind, making it difficult to catch a clear thought about the effect that Domina's suggestions are having on me.
Day 18:
Just half way through this week, but the dissociative effects of Domina's suggestions have become so strong, that i didn't even notice stopping when i got too aroused. Or did i forget that i was stroking and just didn't continue...? Whatever it is, it doesn't feel like i'm having much conscious control over it any more. I just decide to start stroking (do i really or does it just feel like?) and from there on it feels like someone else is moving my hand...
Day 19:
Today was again a day without touching. At first, i thought i wouldn't get too hard, considering that my current suggestions would only lead to more frustration from stroking.
But as the day went by, my craving to listen to Domina's voice grew. Every word of Her seemed to be extra sexy today and it took me longer than usual to come down after the session had ended.
Day 20/21:
It has been a busy weekend and i have been distracted most of the time, so there's not much to tell. The last week of Loctober starts tomorrow... i'm getting the impression, that the part of me that wants to stay chaste is winning. i just don't like the thought of sacrificing all the build-up for a little release...
